somewhere i belong

AUSSY AUSSY AUSSY!!!

2008-12-14T17:20:00.002+08:00

well hellooooo...1st of all..SKOOLS OUT BEBEHHH!wooohooo e day tt i hv been secretly counting down...though its gonna be a boring week (im sure mili will agree), i rather stay home den do FMT! bleahhhh...can go shopping too!haha already went on fri sat n sun n both xmas clothes n presents!so fun!

Now m home chillaxing...need to get some things organized at home, for example...my wardrob! ooo xmas tree is up ( i decorated it mind u!) n kelly e cat has been clawing it down..bad kitty! mm gt few things to clear up 2 so better get 2 it after blogging..

o n i think e highlight 4 dis xmas, or 4 e year..or infact for my LIFE so far...im goin 2 aussy!!!wahahha o wait, dun think aussy is e main idea here ppl! im gonna meet my true love at long last!e whole waiting thing is put on pause at last..so i will be gone 4 10 days, enjoying life at last..hehe shall come back n update yall abt e trip..4 nw, i can only imagine..:p

"10 more days till true love meets"

sooooo tired

2008-11-20T21:58:00.002+08:00

WAZZAAAAAP my people!well, been bz(or lazy) pass few days to update...been bz playin games on neopets as well..hehe yea yea i noe, kid stuff but i still love it!go create a virtual pet!www.neopets.com...anywayz, mi juz got back from sfx church..im gonna be in a choir for a wedding dis sat so 2day was rehersal..met up wif few of e jr cats n we got lost!haha no wories, took a cab 2 e place wen we gave up..it was great 2 see them all agian..a breath of fresh air i might say..so practice went well..ooo jo said i sound like a jazz singer at a bar or smth..hehe :)))gotta dress all nice on sat..so im gonna dress up n be all pretty:D hehe sharman dont follow mi or ill throw my heels at u :p..so now m home dead tired..o i think im much more sure of my studies dis time...im gonna choose my modules for next sem n be done wif tt..i juz still pray tt i get 2 aussy sometime soon..hmm shld be clubbin dis sat..c hw tt goes..k i wanna get back 2 gaming(PSP)..check in wif u guys soon!

"Your eyes are the brightest of all the colours"

B.O.R.I.N.G

2008-11-09T14:59:00.002+08:00

omg i m so bloody bored right nw i cld juz die! woke up 2 early..10 am..n found myself home alone yet again..decided 2 study for genetics ut tml..i missed like 2 out of e 4 lessons..im so screwed tml..tue also gt ut n tt 1 i didnt attend any of e lessons..im gonna die dis sem!I juz pray tt i dun repeat any of e modules?such a waste if i did...anyhow been studying since morn n m thinking of taking a break..but i dunno wat else 2 do!no 1 2 chat wif, noel is at work so can only c him at night..i feel like im goin no where..had a chat wif mum juz nw abt dis IPBMS thingy, which is some kind of advanced dip tt allows u 2 do a degree in aussy after ur poly...anyway i was thinking of getting out of tt cause i seriously cant take it..i try but it doesnt seem 2 get mi anywhere..so finally told my mum n she was ok wif mi backing out..prob is i dunno hw soon i can get 2 aussy...1 reason i took dis IPBMS is so i cld get 2 be wif noel quick...but nw im wondering hw..most prob after dip ill go straight 2 aussy n apply 4 a degree there..hope i get in though..man so worried abt dis..i hv 2 do my best till den..kz i think i shld go back 2 studying...later wanna watch madagascar on TV:D

"You like to..MOVE IT!"

cause u had a bad day..

2008-11-05T21:49:00.002+08:00

vanakam...on monday, nt only was it e 1st day back at skool, but it was a bad day 2!mannnnnn i was so positive n looking forward 2 skool,telling myself i will give my best and so on..however things changed and that wasnt the case at all. I went all e way 2 skool..n 4gt my lap top charger!!i mean tts alright can juz work wif my team mates, but i hat ut tt day!so i went all e way back 2 get it n spent $$ on cab..such i waste i tell ya!n i wasnt able to do much during meetings as well..so tt was my 1 lesson gone...ut was ok but cld hv been better...haiz bad start la..o n guess wat, gt sick in e middle of e night n cldnt go 2 skool on tue!damnnnn dis aint my semester at all!Anywayz, m still arrnaging my song folder and i think i lost some songs!hopefully i recall at least few..those who noe mi noe i hv way 2 many songs as compared to a normal person!hmm btw did u guys noe u cld dl utube videos n convert them 2 mp3 files!?so cool right!anywayz wanna hit e hay, need 2 get rid of these drugs!so long n gd night!

Hangover..NOT!

2008-11-02T14:03:00.002+08:00

so here I am again, another sunday lazing on my bed...i shld still be sleeping even though its 2 in e afternoon..haha went clubbing last night n i must say of all e clubbing days, this was 1 of e boring moments. There were not as many people as before...probably all went of fri 4 halloween n gt hangover..haha anywayz went wif eugene n tyler..we went 2 e bar 1st 2 get a shot..omg bacardi 151 is strong!1 shot u gulp it down n u feel ur whole chest n stomach burn wif e 7 hard liquors..but dis isnt my 1st so i didnt seem 2 get high enough..body immune already i suppose..hehe..managed 2 dance wif few fellas n it was so funny watching e drunk ppl trying 2 make sence of their surrounding..well gt back at 4am n k.o..i forced myself 2 wake at 11am cause i hv a test tml n i hvnt given it a thought till nw..gosh i need 2 buck up..hmm im thinkin of rearranging my music folders 2 suit my mood..theres juz 2 many!ok before i go off, i wanna make a commitment right here..im gonna go 2 skool from nw till end of sem..i hv missed 2 many lessons n i need 2 straighten myself, no excuses...argh still feel miserable n emotionally weak..i need 2 get over myself..OUT!

"Have you forgotten how we used to be?"

im back..or maybe tts wat i think?

2008-10-31T00:07:00.003+08:00

well hello there..before i start anything, sharman somehow tempted mi 2 come back n blog..n at dis hour(midnight) hes asking mi 2 update...so dis is 4 u! well highlight 4 2day was PP poster..its finally over man!n i tell u i better get a good grade or im gonna start a riot..dont doubt mi...on a lighter note, i hv been slacking n wasting my life infront of e tv n lappy 4 dis 1 week break..isnt tt fabulous?! juz got couple of songs from my extremely long distant cousin, n its abt time i gt these songs!hv been keeping them n they turned out 2 be a long list..neos comp is slowing down again, but he managed 2 dl songs 4 himself n nt 4 mi...hmm so turned 2 e alternative...hmm clubbing dis sat any1?haha ok sidetrack..well pass week hv been spending days alone..i dunno where neo has run 2..he doesnt seem 2 care much as before..suppose he has things on his mind..n he says he doesnt want 2 tok 2 mi either..so im juz shoving off..wat really disappoints mi though is tt he noes i cant go thru a day wifout tokin 2 him, yet he still puts mi thru dis shit..he hasnt been there 4 mi lately, n desnt let mi be there 4 him either..i dunno la, juz gonna try 2 keep my mouth shut..i really dun want anything 2 do wif him 4 nw i guess..geeez i need a hobby, wont some1 get mi a hobby?btw, 4 those of u newcomers, neo is my bf..so tt shld give u a small idea of wats goin on in my current life...kz im out, n i suppose u might see mi back again soon :p

"I wish you knew I existed"

end of term 2..SOON!

2008-01-27T20:18:00.000+08:00

yooo ppl! k its been long since i came here cause pretty much tied up with a lot of things. jus wanted 2 update 4 e sake of it..hehe anywayz its almost end of e 1st year at RP 4 me...glad tts happening cause FINALLY i can go into my specific course...ive had it wif enterprise & vb..seriously! Also 1 more week & its like gonna be GV 4 mi everyday. they want 2 start training mi 4 box office & candy bar..dammit..anyway i rather do tt den jus rot at home 4 3mths..hmm w46B has been really an interesting class 2 be wif..gonna miss dem man..alright usual wen i blog, my thoughts flow like water, but currently its not..maybe cause i hv other stuff on my mind..so i guess ill stop here 4 now..o btw did i mention i got a song vaio?:D

"He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar"

Darling W15H

2007-09-05T12:49:00.000+08:00

soooooo...looks like my head will be chopped off real soon if i dont write anything...so prepare urself 2 read yet another o so long entry! a lot has been goin on so let mi start wif all e small things 1st...

went out wif my cuzzies n gloria 2 watch evan almighty..was ok i guess..we went 4 lunch at delifrance n u will not believe dis..7 bucks for service charge??!?wat service did we get anyway??i had 2 walk 2 e other end 2 get cheese!!so 2 make it worth $7, we finished e whole bottle of cheese..hehe dan kept muttering under ghis breath "service charge" each time he took the cheese..jeeeeeez n we left a comment form..dude wats up wif e service charge?wat e hell do u peeps do wif it on e count there is no service?!

im really anxious abt my phone bill...been making calls 2 aussy while i was at e chalet wif w15h...im willing 2 pay, jus how much is wat im wondering abt..hehe n baby's comp died...again..so i hv no other choice but 2 call, dun want him 2 call cause things r pretty tied up wif him..MISS HIM!!!as always

tan & dan hv been comin over on n of 4 dis week...but i still find us all being bored..its ok, we shall all be bored 2gether at least!right now tanya is playing the guitar,smoke on the water..at least she isnt annoying mi e way my bro wld..he n his awful singing

work has been great so far 4 a mth..gv n tutioning n now m gonna try out 4 a DJ course wif bridgette akka n dian..hope i can still maintain dis juggling system of studying n working..juz wanna do smth outside e box..want my lifestyle 2 be diff, hectic cause im really sick of juz sitting arnd n watch my life pass by!

went 4 class chalet on mon n came back on wed...nth much happened since it rained all e time...e guys brought their guitars n laptops so zak was teachin mi few things n rmb u hv 2 gimme ur guitar kz!?!we got drunk tt night..n really wasnt a pretty sight...man did they get violent..zaki really was a hilarious sight!i got really dizzy at a pt of time 2 but i proved tt i cld walk e line!i recall aiman n mai laughin at mi at e corner..ha!thought i didnt noe eh! i drank raphs beer accidently..n i went 2 him n hugged him n cried sayin im sorry i drank ur beer!!!ahaha crap n i went 2 hug jerry n said im actually drunk n he jus laughed at mi!!haha fun la tt night but i slept almost e rest of e days at e chalet n honestly, it wasnt enough..hehe baby managed 2 call mi during e day so tt made mi feel betta..muaxxxx!bbq was alright too...nice food!went off abit earlier wif yq on e last day cause had work!arghhhh!but hey, was e last time i ever saw w15h altogether...love those guys

it will be 1 more week of hols n den skool will reopen n tts e end of w15h bein in e same class..haiz was really fun hving dem arnd, neva had a class so united n open 2 each other. i hope e next class i get will be juz as funloving...so heres a little smth i wish 2 say...

I hope u guys succeed in everything u do. i will miss all e bullying n hogging some of ur laptops 2 ease my CS craze n of course my daily dosage of crazy taxi n need 4 speed..hehe it was fun working wif all of u n u guys definately opened my eyes to c new things n c dem in a diff way..loved e way we sang along 2 various songs during breakouts! how united we were!well, i noe dis aint e end so all i hv 2 say is, wen we go our seperate ways, i wish u all e best in wateva we do n we shall all meet again at some pt of time!W15H will always be the WISH class!we rock!!!!!!!

"Thou shalt do the dance!"

happy bday 2 mi!!

2007-08-01T11:52:00.000+08:00

sooooo yep i, rachel isabella charles, turned 17 of 30 july!hmm well i personally dun feel it as important as how i felt 4 my 16th bday...dunnoe feel more layed back actually..so anywayz let c wat happened..

on e 29, i went out wif mum 4 dinner at swensence..my bday treat n i paid...mum didnt want 2 go but i forced her cause needed 2 speak 2 her badly..i finally revealed 2 her later on abt noel! n she was surprised n happy 4 mi..hehe told her everything and yea, thank god got tt out in e open at last!n den..ran over 2 dads place n told him i had a bf n he was really shocked..hehe should hv seen his reaction..cldnt stop laughin really..hehe n he was happy 4 mi as well but u noe parents, they wil be worried n all but yea wat i told them was tt its my decision n im juz letting u noe tts all..i wont let u decide 4 mi!!haha so yea i got back releaved n noel stayed wf mi till midnight...

e following day was interesting..cut e cake from mum n bro n went of 2 skool..was enterprise so had 2 wear formally...n during 2nd break, sara brought mi out of e class n made mi walk 1 big round juz 2 distract mi from wat was 2 happen in class..started tellin me stories tt e class was against him n e reason was cause of mi!!wat bullshit haha n wen we went back they started singin mi a bday song n there on e table was a cake!!awwww u guys!!haha really touched..such a big cake might i add..of course took thousand n one pics...e teacher bought mi chocs as well!!so sweet love yall w15h!!n after tt i rushed off 4 dinner wif dads side of e family...dad juz had 2 tell every1 tehre abt noel..so yea e questions came but i kept myself calm n positive 2 ans their questions...hehe had another cake!!

well i think i did do dis right..it was best 2 tell eveything juz before my bday so tt things wont go wrong!hehe if u noe wat i mean...wow 3 cakes in 1 day!tts a lot..n im meeting anu all later n treating dem out as well..c how tt goes..

yep anywayz wat i got so far was e HARRY POTTER BOOK!!!!whehehe n avrils best damn thing album, a box full of makeup n earings, a hair straightener, a bag n yea bunch of chocs n $$$ hehe

dis bday was really dif from mi, spending it wif some1 so special even though so far...really miss him but always keeping in mind ill see him real soon..time will fly! no matter wat happens ill stand by him..nth can change tt

kz i betta run out now

"I LOVE him"

lonely no more

2007-07-22T19:35:00.000+08:00

lonely no more...ur face occupies my thoughts, our memories keeping mi company. I dunnoe if u guys noticed but i definately c a change in myself...after getting wat i wanted 4 e past 3mths, i feel that i have become arrogant, more rude, angry, over protective, sensitive...i dunno but juz all e bad side of mi seems 2 be showin more e past mth..dis aint mi really, i noe myself..thank God i noticed so it really is up 2 mi 2 find myself again...

apart from that, LIFE IS GREAT BABY!!!feel a whole new level put up 4 mi!despite everything that happens throughot e day, i find myself smiling and laughing by the end of e day...n its all because of u :p

went out wif ms.mili n ms.su qi n her sis 2 watch harry potter(again)..i must say it aint tt bad u noe...though e movie was a rush meaning they skipped a lot of e good parts..but it was all good since draco n e weasly twins were there..hehe..but it was e ppl i spent time wif tt mattered..missed tt susu girl la! missed bullying her!tt girl is still e same!same style most importantly same laughter!haha damn had fun wif those guys yest...was supposed 2 meet anu actually but cocked up due 2 a particular person sending mi e wrong msg..but doesnt matter anyway

skool has been great as usual..grades gd n so on..as u can c, few hv discovered my blog n claim tt i didnt mentioned anything bout it...i did mention it dammit!!haha well at least now u guys noe so wat u waiting 4, link mi up!there was a ridiculous incident tt happened e other day during VB lesson(which no doubt, il stress upon)..so wat happened wa stt mr.saravanan n i went 4 lunch n were requested to buy waffles 4 e class. wen we came back, sara was trying to give out e exact change to those who paid..he didnt succeed n needed my help den..hard 2 convince him la!i gave e money back exactly n there was left 1 but we were short in 10 cents..4 tt dis sara sir made a big fuss!omg i juz took my 10 cents n offered 2 pay but nooooo he still insisted tt we gave out e wrong change!jerry got in n was like "10 cents only y so much fuss"...of course sara still insisted n tts wen i lost it n shouted at him 2 juz leave it its only 10 bloody cents!!which I paid!!haha got e class laughin n finally got rid of tt..but still sara seemed 2 be in deep thought wif tt.hehe poor fella,but he has his morals though

o n btw its saravanans bday today so HAPPY BDAY DUDE!!despite e fact tt u TRY 2 make my life miserable in class, i wish u all e best in wateva u do!

hmm my bday is comin..shall be hving few days 2 celebrate i guess..sun out wif mum,mon out wif dad den tue or wed out wif my darlings..i promised 2 bring dem 2 swensence so maybe tt is on sat...mili wont let mi go until i treat, anu...no need 2 say, she will threaten!hehe..well c how tt goes..cant believe m turning 17..time flies n cant wait 2 go through more things in e future!

2day wif jc peeps were great...we had 2 be put in e hot seat n e rest will tell things abt u..so wen i wnet up, dan asked, who is rachel..n gosh all e unexpected ans came n i was shocked in a way tt these guys noticed such things abt mi..1 was tt i always hv a smile on my face, hv a so called secret sense of humour tt some noticed, doing my best, being a gd frend n tt i bring out e best in others...gosh it went on n on like tt..love those guys m glad i stayed in tt group..really feel e bond after e camps!

well...been hving late nights 4 e past 1 mth.n wen i mean late nights, i really mean it..it can go till 4 am in e morn n standard i hv 2 wake up at 7 everyday..usually i wld break down after 1 week,but dis is a diff situation n its 4 a purpose tts y m still standing tall! some asked mi how e hell im still stable n if i drink red bull always..honestly i dun need tt shit, juz a particular smth which can last mi a life time..hehe no wat i mean?

kk enough of tt..my bday is nearing n there is smth i hv 2 reveal 2 my family soon..i hv 1 more week n all i ask is 4 u Lord 2 stand by mi n give mi courage to do wat i hv 2 do.i juz hv 2 hope n pray 4 e best n most importantly, acceptance.

"Nothing you confess will make me love you less"

25/6/2007

2007-06-26T21:36:00.000+08:00

25 june 2007

everything changed. EVERYTHING!! E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G
first of...God is great. just like what my fellow classmate Kaiser says. God is wonderful, hes excellent.he works in mysterious ways. 1 moment i really felt like an outcast, so many bloody probs kept comin 2 mi.I honestly wanted to give up n i honestly felt no way out.

AND DEN IT HAPPENED!!my god i hv neva felt such a sudden change to everything!!all my dreams came true n suddenly im soaring in the sky!everything happens 4 a reason n damn ur e reason. im saved from everything!!i hv no words to describe wat has happened but i really thank God. I know hes watchin out for mi. 4 sure

ok i dont wanna say more at dis moment but God i love u..YOU ROCK MY WORLD BABY!!!You really answered my ever prayer i can thank no one else but u.Lord u dunnoe how damn bloody happy i m!!or maybe u do!ehehehehe

"we belong together"

well well well looky wat we hv here..

2007-06-22T17:35:00.000+08:00

o boy..dis whole week was really crazy 4 mi..never felt so pressured in a long time. manged 2 get thru my cc3 camp. wasnt so bad actually..all of us really bonded 2gether..well it was fathers day n so i called my dad n he seemed pretty tired so i juz put down e phone n carried on wif e camp stuff..but wen i came home sun night, my mum told mi dad had been hospitalised due 2 some virus in his leg....well now hes ok n back home but my qus is y didnt u idiots tell mi earlier!?!so tt i wont panic???wat excuse, as if i wldnt panic after i knew!?well so much 4 family...

well anywayz a particular fella is really bothering my inner soul already..i dun like dis i need a way out..lord gimme a sign!!!

fell ill on wed night..again..dun wanna hvnt gone 2 e doc n hv no intention 2 go either...e last time i went, e doc asked wat m i doin here again..haha im his regular customer!

skool has been great..juz hvnt been able to concentrate cause things keep popping to my mind. well now its fri, i hv time 2 rest n heal myself mentally n physically..shld be goin 2 watch sivaji wif mili..so c how tt goes..

God i dun understand man..things are so crappy these days.. lord 1 moment i was wif u now e next, once i set foot out of ur house, i feel so alone so miserable so..unprotected...i noe ur there but it feels as though u hv left mi...seriously...

only noel has been arnd 2 c how i hv been doin..makes mi wonder who my real frends hv been..though so far away, he cares abt mi more den any1..really miss tt pandi now, can wait 2 c him again..if u break my heart, he will break ur face..hehe tts wat he said..so touching!i hv backup yall hear mi!but hell no matter wat, i hv 2 be there 4 myself 1st...k i cant take dis anymore my head is starting to cramp..c yall another round

"Lord gimme a sign"

e feeling of being...LOST

2007-06-09T13:42:00.000+08:00

I dunnoe wat 2 do..i wanna quit my church group but at e same time i dont..i feel like im 2 deep in wif dem..i dun understand y i wanna quit also..camps r fun!i guess i dun feel commited enough...e cc1 camp went well...i dun get y im not happy 2 go 4 cc3 camp though...setan is tryin 2 work his way into my mind again..i shall fight back n juz go 4 e meetings!need a positive attitude!anyway meeting is only tml in e afternoon so i hv time 2 rest..i juz pray i find my place n settle down quickly

i need 2 get myself out of e skool groups now!!those i hvnt gone 2 deep yet so there is chance 4 mi 2 turn back..i still want my DJ!!!haiz..skool will start back in another week n its back 2 doin e same thing over n over..but i get 2 c my wish class!hehe

o went 2 sentosa on thur wif my class..had so much fun man!haha buried ppl n all of us came back sunburnt n darker!my face still hurts!but was really fun being out wif them..really cool bunch of ppl, i hv neva been as close wif a class like dis before!love yall!

went to e NEWater place yest wif anu n mili..was quite fun actually..wanted 2 push mili into e fountain place but u noe, dun wanna create a scene so i resisted..hehe e gurl wants 2 go watch yogi-B live at expo in aug..so shall be groovin wif her!

shall be goin over 2 anu's place tml evening i guess..meet e little kiddies again..she wants 2 go 2 jurong pool! so c how tt goes...wateva it is, i shall return by wed!

mum made mi clean e house 2day..hehe she always does anyway...n now m done n juz sitting in my room..alone..heeeeeheee visva woke mi up 2day juz 2 disturb mi..haha but i enjoy e company!

i still feel a little down cause few things r still bothering mi..im looking 4ward 2 spending e night alone at home so i can juz sing my heart out..hey it helps 2 release stress u noe...gosh maybe i shld juz stop thinkin abt e camps n juz pray..let God handle it 4 mi..

"Lord to give up i'd be a fool, you are my all in all"

im back!

2007-06-03T13:20:00.000+08:00

hehehe abt a mth since i blogged! been really caught up wif skool and other stuff...skool is rockin as ever..presentations goin on day after day..some apparantly seem 2 get bored wif tt n start skipping skool but hey, up 2 dem! Tests are all over n results r surprising...i demand ans u here mi!?!

mili n i r tryin 2 get into a proper IG...doesnt seem 2 be workin out...c we were in drama den in dis media thingy n all we wanted was 2 be in dis DJ club..u noe spinning tables n stuff!n i hv no idea how e hell i got into ICG...haiz hehe wanna get out of all n hopefully get into e DJ thingy next year at least..i need some skills baby!

2 weeks break juz started n im gonna keep myself occupied..tml itself already hv dis course 2 attend, following day as well...goin sentosa wif W15H!!e coolest class on earth man really love em all!e 25 of us shall create havock there!so sad must leave dem after sept..y la rp like tt, must keep changing class...im 2 used 2 these makkal already..hope we all keep in touch..

Jerrys bday was on fri so we dumped his face in flour!hehe n e fella treat us all 2 pizza..tts it, he set e standard already..my bday is comin so hv 2 treat these ppl n my own makkal also!saras bday is comin soon 2 n i dun care i must get back at him!!tts 4 all e bullying u hv done 2 moi!its actually a cycle...raphael bullys sara, sara bullys mi, mi bullys imi!haha funny ppl

Oooo ya i was really sick few weeks back but i still came 2 skool cause nobody was home 2 take care of mi n i came wif e hope tt e class wld take care of mi..they sure did:D...they bought mi strepsils, water, fruits n so on..so sweet!

I had a 3 hour tok on e phone wif a certain someone on a particular day n i hv come 2 e conclusion of moving on..it juz wont work out...he has his mind pretty much made up n so hv i..so tts tt..but 4 e 1st time i really felt my heart crack..tears comin down...but its ok ill get over it dis is all part of life..leave it

im in serious shit wif pravin...n i hope i get out of it asap..it juz wont work buddy...i got into trouble wif dis other fella e other day whereby he came up 2 mi 2 ask 4 my no. n juz started tokin...i wanted 2 get out but he wanted my no so bad so i gave it n ran out of e train!he has msged once n i ignored..but tts not wats worrying mi..wat if i c his friggin face again since he takes e damn train!? imi told mi 2 call him if i get into trouble wif tt so ok, i hv backup!n i hv visva, mind u:p..i got into another problem..gosh i dun get it, e moment i get into poly, i seem 2 be getting myself into trouble...wif Gods grace, im getting out! thing is, i cant seem 2 learn from my mistakes..

yest was quite a busy day..tan&dan came overn we went 2 watch pirates..a huge let down i tell u..damn bloody boring n i seriously didnt get it..of course, johnny depp was awesome but tts abt it..e rest can go jump off a bridge..after tt i rushed 2 NTU 4 dis moksha concert n yogi B was there!!but so sad he only sang 1 song..hehe must tell logy! his fav dr.burn was there also..the competition was great..not bad..killer bees rocked man!new group, they can make it all e way 4 sure, confirmed. wish them luck n hope 2 c dem performe more. we ot out at abt 12 midnight n were shocked 2 c tt e last MRT train had left!!lucky milis father came n sent us back..reached home at 1 am i think n was starving so ate maggie n was up wif dan till 3am..

anu is comin over..think she really had enough wif stuff at her place so she wanted 2 come over..give her time, take her mind off stuff..e funfair in woodlands decided 2 set itself up beside my block...im gonna sleep wif screams wen tt place opens up...hehe

k la tts abt it, wateva i cld recall so far..i still keep thinkin abt e "getup" thingy from yest drama!cant stop laughin la..haha yest we were in e middle of a crisis n i kept making jokes abt tt "getup" thingy hehe shld hv seen little milis stressed up face!hehe kkkk m out!

"W15H rocks my black and red socks!!"

its been awhile

2007-05-06T10:45:00.000+08:00

wow its been really long since i blogged...really been busy i guess n everytime i do hv time, i end up sleepin...no mood 2 blog u c!so yea let mi c wateva i recall ill type it down..

lets begin wif yest!went 4 steamboat at east coast..early mothers day dinner...i didnt eat much though, seems 2 be tt way since i started skool...but ok la not bad..after tt my cuz drove us home n we juz chilled..spoke 2 jackie akka( my cuz from usa) n seems shes building a house!might be goin 4 a visit next year so hv 2 start saving!

went 2 east coast beach wif anu baby on fri after skool...e child was feelin down n really wanted 2 go 2 e beach so ok since i was free, i went wif her...was BEAUTIFUL!juz a full moon sitting in e sky n plenty of stars all arnd..very peaceful..so anywayz we ate n juz sat at e edge of e ocean n toked..came back at midnight n knocked out..

firdays lesson was e best i had so far 4 enterprise...really funny man..e facil wanted 2 play a game whereby nobody was 2 say "why"..if u did u had 2 buy dis choco coin from him at 10 cents for 2..i ended up gettin 10 coins at e end of tt lesson :D wasnt on purpose i tell u!can u blame mi 4 being a curious child??haha anywayz i didnt hv 2 pay at all, my darling team mates paid 4 mi hehe...cause e facil was like "next week is my last week" so my immediate reaction was "WHY!?!" n yea u get it...n wen e facil was abt 2 walk out i said "why" again n he came back n made mi pay..dunnoe wats up but he seemed pretty down at e end of lesson...he will explain next week, n theres e treat of pizza as well!another thing tt happened was wen i asked a qus n he made mi do a role play!2gether wif kaiser who was e seller, aiman e buyer n mi e agent..so i was supposed 2 convince kaiser 2 sell his house at 300k..haha funny la i tried tokin but e guy stood his ground!den 2 make matters complicated, e facil brought in samuel n raph as another agent n buyer...n den chan as another seller!goodness in e end i settled wif chan n case closed by agent rach..hehe wen mr.facil asked how come i managed 2 buy, e class was like "seduction"..seduction my ass la haha lucky hui jun supported mi..ha!female fan yall!yea tt was a jk la..1 female agent against 5 guys..beat tt!1 thing i dun get is tt im a science student, wat m i doin bein a house agent?

ever since i rebonded my hair, i keep playin dis game wif hui yan whereby i c her but she doesnt c mi(cause of my fringe) haha damn do i irritate her!kaiser bought us ladies of e group brownies(from skool) n boy were they heavenly delicious!didnt expect skool 2 sell high class food!

hmm so as u can c, m enjoyin poly life!feel like getting a part time job again..c how tt goes..anywayz e UT tests r comin soon..a little revision n ill be fine..i hope....well tts abt it i cant think much at e moment, sunday morn u c...kk peaceout

"I need inspiration, not just another negotiation"

GASP!

2007-04-22T18:10:00.000+08:00

omg i actually finally rebonded my hair!!sweeeeeet i love it man!but hell e process was damn bloody long...had 2 sit at tt saloon for 4 h+!!but e ppl there were quite funny n cheerful so wasnt so bad...hehe cant stop touching my hair..i really tried my luck abt e dying my hair red part but mum really stood her ground..FINE!ill do it wen im older...now i wanna pierce my ear again

cant wait 4 skool tml!hehe lets c wat e makkalz hv 2 say...but i really wanna bump into dis tall indian dude cause it was him tt prompted mi 2 rebond my hair...he has e exact same hairstyle as mi, juz tt his is rebonded...so NOW i can show him back!hehe ok wateva

I HAVE YET 2 FIND MY BAG!!arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

k i wanna go try out dis visual thingy cause its necessary 4 skool n i honestly hv no idea wat 2 do..so m gonna try 2 be familiar wif it..mili seemed 2 hv fun wif it, let mi c if i can!c yall in e next entry..till den dis is e gurl wif e straight hair speaking..

"supersize our tragedies"

TGIF!

2007-04-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

dudeeeeees!wats up yall!?well 1 week at rp has gone by...n man do i love it!its really a gd life even though u hv 2 wake up early n come back late everyday..its not as hectic though some lessons require u 2 think way 2 deep in...wat we hv 2 do 4 each day is understand e prob given 2 us, work as a team 2 solve e prob n present wat u hv at e end of e day..seriously tts all tt happens everyday!n y i love it is cause i love debate n speech so presentation is a fun thing 4 mi!n thing is we learn as a class..teachers no need 2 be there also...but its fri n as wat they say..TGIF(thank god its fri)..by e 4th day i was kinda tired out cause of my sleepin pattern..its aight juz need 2 get used 2 it..

4 dis week, e lesson i enjoyed e most was basic science which was e last lesson 4 e week..mainly cause science is wat i enjoy..n on top of tt it was abt bio stuff so bio is smth tt is close 2 my heart!yea thing is, my group was like totally lost at wat 2 do so dis time round, i did most of e explanation...n i think i might hv come across as "fierce" during presentation due 2 e fact tt qus kept comin 4rom e floor ppl..hehe sorry guys!shall be more pleasant n welcome ur qus wif open arms!

did i mention how sweet my class is?well they r!we bonded quite well case like within 1 week, we celebrated some1s bday n had cake!n they say hi n bye so tts kinda cool 2..!

i like e way we r being graded...end of e day all we hv 2 do is a quiz, evaluation n reflection journal(rj)..n its juz like writing a blog entry..express urself well, show ur presentation skills n show tt ur able 2 ans oncoming qus n u will be given an A...!well now it may seem gd but guess dis is juz e beginning...

i hv 2 be in e train wif anu everyday...n i tell u e things she does leave mi speechless..hehe juz imagine a pole there n her dancing...haiz she wants 2 so called turn mi on but i think she turned on e rest of e ppl in e train..hehe jk la

might be goin 2 tt THIS FASHION place tml..i told anu 2 camp there itself..hehe..n sunday!supposed 2 go out wif meena but i doubt i can since im gonna watch phanthom of e opera at esplanade..c how tt goes..yea ok tts abt it 4 now, c how next week goes..o btw dis is my 80th entry...more crap 2 come hehe..kk 4 now all i can say is 'im lovin it'!

"I'm a goofy goober YEA!"

satisfaction ; p

2007-04-15T18:54:00.000+08:00

o boy wat a weekend!but at e end of it all i feel happy yet disturbed..shall get 2 tt later on!so let mi begin wif orientation at rp!wed nth much happened juz had 2 go class n listen 2 wat e teacher had 2 say...my timetable will be in a way tt i hv lesson 4 an hour den hv 1 hour break den carry on another 1 hour den 2 hours break den e final lesson which cld take up to 2 hours?!i dunnoe but damn i like it!i cld get used 2 dis lifestyle man so nice..i dun mind goin back late either!cause e whole pt i go back is 2 sit wif my comp..but now i hv a lap top!my class ppl r a nice jovial playful bunch!yay!

thur was e main orientation day whereby they had loads of games...guess wat!!there was dis guy who looked exactly like noel!infact, sooo many ppl in rp kinda look like noel but i think dis was e real look alike!was weird man but haha got mi thinkin bout tt boy..hope hes doin ok..o u noe wat, e whole thing was a bore..n on top of tt they made us run arnd e campus during dis game..n i cracked a jk tt made miligal laugh like hell!cause i was lookin arnd seeing sudents from e SCHOOL OF APPLIED SCIENCE running arnd n i said "hey mili check dis out future scientists running arnd like small kids"...haha man we laughed silly...anywyaz got back dead tired n anu, mili n myself were reluctant 2 go 4 e 2nd day...

we went 2 rp on fri, juz tt we didnt go 4 e orientation!went 2 configure anu's lap top n ran out of skool hehe...tired la den some more had 2 go 4 anu's prayer thingy 2 help out..so we headed 2 my place 1st 2 take my stuff as i was spending e weekend at her place..n went over 2 her place, met up wif priyaa n went..was quite interesting e whole procession..had lion dance all!priyaa had e brilliant idea 2 steal a costume n join in..not happening!haha k we had 2 serve food n boy was it crazy!e ppl juz push 2 get food!n was only mi dis other guy n gurl serving(anu n priyaa went 2 do their prayers)half way e guy said 2 mi tt he forgot 2 wash his hands(he was serving wif his hand due 2 lack of cutlery!)n we were giggling away!sad part was i had 2 serve vadai!!n i didnt even get a single piece wen it was right there infront of mi...haiz..haha k went back late at night n juz knocked out..

anu n i were supposed 2 meet up wif meena on sat n go shopping but apparently she decided 2 cancel n not let us noe..nvm we juz stayed home n relaxed n den e plan 4 some ppl 2 come over came up n ya they came n finally got 2 meet suren!n we immediately clicked since i had toked 2 him before n anu told abt mi 2 him...nice m really happy 4 my darling!ahaha ok umm i wont elaborate more cause wateva happens within 4 walls..stays within 4 walls!lol but yea tts e reason y m overjoyed!o in e night at abt 2 am suresh called...i actually dozed off waiting 4 him but yea did manage 2 tok 2 him..till 6 am!!i think tts e longest so far...n alot happened tt night!!n best part was i thought anu had fallen asleep..i was so wrong!she heard everything n haha..dunnoe where 2 put my face...but yea m juz getting 2 noe la..but m sorry cause of mi she 2 cldnt sleep well..i felt disturbed

meena kept callin from 8am on sun...she was comin over tt time..n i only had 2 HOURS OF SLEEP DAMMIT!!!let mi sleeeeep la but nooooo she juz kept callin..finally anu n i woke up at 11...got ready n went round amk..meena looks e same la...haha but didnt communicate much..o god THIS FASHION is open..so u cld imgaine how mad anu became..well at least i had meena!ahaha..my mind didnt function due 2 lack of sleep..reminded mi of jennys bday..drink den didnt sleep den next day i was like a blank wall..juz sit there stare, eyes open but my mind wasnt workin..same as 2day!ya anywayz sent meena off in hope of meeting next week..went back 2 anu's place packed up n left 4 home..

gosh wat a weekend..but i dun mind if its dis way!so nice..like go skool den enjoyin e weekend..cool..k m juz so happy, troubled n damn tired..iyo rp tml...haiz well its aight bring it on baby!!

"Baby you never have to question my love"

meetings

2007-04-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

wow whee i must say tt 2day was spent very well since it was e last day of hols...well lemme start wif last night where i slept at 5 am!cause was keeping suresh company n i too wasnt sleepy...so at abt 12 i think, mili started sayin tt she really wanted 2 go out 4 e last time..so ok i msged anu 2 c if she cld make it but she cldnt cause she was kinda mood out..so ok mili n i decided 2 juz got back 2 our sec skool n go back 2 my place...but at abt 3 am in e morn..mr.sharman came online n was askin wat e plans 4 my day was..so i told him n he was sayin he was out 2!so i decided 2 invite him along la..n raja 2 since mili wanted 2 meet him as well...wah so last min man!but tts e way i like it, more exciting!hehe 3 am decide den at abt 9 am i got a wake up call n we all decided 2 meet up in e afternoon at douby gaut 2 watch a movie...so yea we all met up n were tokin n lookin arnd n den went 2 watch e robinsons...not worth it tts all im sayin...

so after e movie we all went back n it was raining like nobodys business..sharman decided 2 run in e rain n he did..without waitin 4 e rest of us!haha n he started 2 call all of us..haha joke la tt fella..run also run allll e way back 2 another building...haha cuckoo den still can call ask where we all were...so okz left dem abt 7pm...n i went 2 j8 2 find a bag tt i cld use 4 rp...n tts wen aneesh msged mi askin where i was..i said j8 n he said he was in e library n tt we cld meet!well ok he asked few times 2 meet up wen he was in j8 but i was busy den...so i though ah juz meet him n get it over wif..plus i was presentable : D...so i found him n we juz toked for an hour or so..he looks sweet in his pics but even sweeter in person!haha was nice tokin 2 him..so den we left 4 home..n m glad he msged mi after i got home, n not run away!haha cause some ppl if they dun like a person, they disappear!so yea hope 2 meet him another time maybe...k now m juz getting ready 2 go 2 bed soon...but i must say it was really a nice way 2 end e hols..meeting up wif old frends n den meeting a new 1..n spending e last day fully...i like it

rp orientation is tml!i cant believe it poly life is startin so soon!now i feel like hvin more hols!haha but ok la new ppl new teachers new environment..c how it goes..juz hope i can fit in..though mili, anu n i r in e same course, we ended up in diff classes...but tts alright guess its time i stand on my own 2 feet..independent baby!!!theres like only 25 students in my class..so little but i like tt in a way..hehe kk c how i shall update abt e orientation programme..4 now my beds callin my name..so dead tired n i hv 2 wake up early tml...all i can say is...bring it on, im ready...

"I've got this icebox where my heart used to be"

happy easter peeps!

2007-04-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY EASTER!well honestly, im not in e "easter" mood...wasnt even in gd fri mood..nvm so anywayz went church in e morn n they were hving dis funfair thingy..its kind of a tradition..so anywayz there was line dancing n all e old peeps got e youngsters 2 dance along!was ridiculous i tell ya!after mass, mum bro n i went over 2 my periammas house 4 lunch..i was lookin forward 2 their huge prawns : p...tan n dan came later on n they gave us all easter eggs!well actually they gave every1 easter eggs n 4 mi...e easter bunny!!hehe im e choco queen in my family...i thought i was e most choco obsessed person ever!till i met ms.anbarasi...i tell u nobody can compete wif her in chocos!haha well okz juz lazed arnd n was tokin 2 my eldest cuz bridgette akka abt a.math n skool life..she has some really interesting stories as a teacher..wow e kind of students she meets!haha tan n my aunt left half way cause e gurl had homework 2 complete!poor child has o levels n syf...so yea, left their place after dinner n now m home eating my easter rabbit!hehe

tml morn im goin back 2 rp...rachel's poly as i call it : D...n hopefully e configuration setting up thingy is completed...o, mums comin...n tt kinda freaks mi out cause shes worked up abt my lappy bein messed up n seems eager 4 a fight...if tt happens ill neva set foot in rp again...right now lappy is sick!o my poor baby...ill save ya!shall say a little prayer before i step into rp tml...

"And they won't show you how much of a king you are to me and why I love you baby"

good friday

2007-04-06T14:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm im kinda pissed off at wat rp did 2 mi still...cause i went there yest wif anu n i was doin my lap top configuration thingy n it took damn long la..anu had 2 go 2 e bank so i kept tellin her 2 leave before e bank closes but she was kind enough 2 stay on till later...i stayed on another 1 hour alone n finally dis guy came 2 mi n said theres some prob wif e loading n tt i hv 2 come back on mon n i juz stared at him...y cldnt u tell mi dis earlier dude!!!i stayed there for 3 hours n each min was like an hour mind u...but there was another guy wif e same prob as mi 2 n so we were e last 2 to leave...i was really mad cause tt time i wasnt feelin 2 well...but was betta after tokin 2 anu, mili n aneesh in e taxi on my way back..hehe

met up wif anu baby few days back n went shopping!well SHE went shopping i juz followed..m not really a shopper la but if i c smth eye catching den ill grab it..o n it seems this fashion is comin 2 amk n dis anu gurl was goin crazy juz thinkin abt it..she noes how much i get irritated wif her this fashion shopping so she purposely wants 2 bring mi there n explore!haha i shall stand in a corner...anywayz ya we juz sat down n toked awhile..reached home at 1030 like tt n my mum was tellin mi tt my neighbour needed help..so i went over n it seems she was goin overseas on some job n needed help 2 take care of her cat n fishes n her room mates dog..so ok i agreed 2 e task..5 animals now!including little kelly...

i hv been walking tt doggy(robin) n its quite fun!i met mrs puru 1 time wif her husband n kids n she intro mi..hehe...n u noe smth, wen i was in e house i went 2 e room mates room 2 c if i cld find a ball 4 robin..i found his diary instead..:D...haha ok at 1st i didnt noe..den it seemed 2 be abt his day n all..found out his name n hes originally from india!n hes obsessed wif bikes n those models..k i didnt really read much..but i found a poto album 2!hehe interesting..well i can tell robin misses him...

hmm 2days gd friday...e day 4 mourning...i kinda feel guilty 4 not goin 2 church..but at e same time i dont wanna go out...if i dont go 2 church i wont go out, tts my policy wen it comes 2 gd friday..it usually rains on dis day as a sign tt christ died..n looks like it might..hmmz y is it called gd friday wen u feel e sadness?well basically 2day is e day tt all sins r 4given..christ died juz 2 save us all, how cool is tt?i mean come on its not everyday some1 dies 4 u yea..but still some1 died n its only respectful 2 moan...

but den again easter is comin!!!!!!which means celebration wheeehehehee!!!shall be in periammas house..there betta be easter eggs or i will cry!!n den on mon, mum shall create war at rp..i hope i dun lose my face la!!if she creates a scene i dun think ill show my face in tt skool..or maybe change my name!put a wig...ok 4get tt...ill hide in a corner or pretend not 2 noe her if tt happens...o help!

"stop biting my style"

thailand trip

2007-04-03T14:25:00.000+08:00

im back ppl!o thailand was awesome man!!so fun really enjoyed...so let mi start at e airport where i got searched!well u noe tt thing u hv 2 walk pass n it will make tt metal detector sound?i was wearing my studded belt so yea..was pulled aside n dis indian lady touched mi all over!!haha it wasnt pleasent mind u...so ok e plane was really small!cause few ppl were goin n all were white ppl man!so cool(yes, i still hv tt obsession)...thailands airport is soooo weird!very unique!wasnt even a proper building no aircon wat so ever!very small its e size of half of terminal 1!maybe smaller...anywayz we went 2 our hotel n it was totally deserted!haha cause dis time not many will go 4 holiday wat..it was already abt 10pm so mum bro n i went 2 bed early..e room was kinda creepy...

sat morn!our tour guide(named froggy!)brought us arnd e island samui which is abt e size of spore i think..or smaller...we went uphill 1st n e view was great!after tt we went snorkiling!!which was really very scary!cause we went on a boat 2 e middle of nowhere n went into e water!iyoo all e fishes came 2 us n 1 even bit mi!n i looked underwater n saw ugly corals n it was like never ending!mum n bro were scared 2 n we all got back into e boat!haha but i went in again cause i didnt want e trip 2 be a waste..o n i stepped on a coral n my whole left leg was in pain!cause i hit my leg against e bed earlier n tt added on..clumsy mi but was ok in e end!..haha but u get dis feeling of freedom cause ur in e middle of e ocean n nobody can stop u!umm ok wateva..after tt we had tom yam 4 lunch!haha sharmili tts juz e begininng k..after tt we went 2 c dis monkey tt was a bore cause he did nth much..n we went on an elephant ride!tt 1 was interesting cause it was mums n bros 1st time..i rode many times before so was fun seeing dem being terrified..ok i was at 1st 2 cause e elephant was like so damn tall!n im afraid of heights so..yea...we went 2 c dis waterfall all...o n we went on a buffalo ride!was really shaky was scraed e whole cart wld fall apart! haha so anywayz all tt took e whole day!reached e hotel back at 5 n got ready 4 e night life!we went 2 e main area n did some shopping..correction, nick did shopping!haha mum n i cldnt find much stuff..o yea u noe wat?there were indians in thailand!2 or 3 of em owning dis tamil shop..didnt eat there though cause come on, who wld go all e way 2 thailand n hv indian food?o yea n as i was lookin at some item dis lady walked pass mi n i tell u i thought i saw her wear traditional clothes(punjabi suit)...n i was like wait a min n i turened 2 c her n true enough i saw a typical indian lady!in thailand!n i was tempted 2 scream at her VANAKAM!or NAMESTAE or wats up MACHI!!!haha ok i dunnoe i was fascinated 2 c indians in thailand..anywayz thai peeps n indians hv abt e same culture...o n 1 thing abt tt night life..so many WHITE PPL!!!was so cool man haha ooo i saw gays 2!o n speakin of which, i almost got into a fight wif 1!i mean involved..cause i was in dis shop buying a drink n suddenly dis shemale walked in screaming at another lady n i was standing inbetween dem!i was terrified but somehow moved away n i was signaling 2 mum 2 GET E HELL OUT OF HERE!!!haha well ok tt was enough 4 1 night we got back exhausted n snoozed...

sun morn!we went 4 another guided tour which took only 2 hours!we went 4 another elephant ride n dis time it was more thrilling!cause we went up dis steep slop n had 2 back down e same way!argh dis fear of heights!after tt we we 4 an elephant show n e elephant kissed my bro!haha n monkey show was better dis time cause e monkey held hands wif mi!!haha e guide was like "hey 2 monkeys 2gether!"haha yea yea monkey meets monkey...sheesh haha anywayz went on dis atv bike!which was so fun!drove arnd 4 awhile..nick was speeding n everytime he passed mi, sand wld go 2 my face!he was indirectly sayin EAT MY DUST LOSER!haha alright after tt we went 4 a cow ride which was much safer dis time..hehe o n we learnt how 2 make dis thai dish..dun ask mi abt it cause i already hv 4gotten wat e ingredients r...o n tts abt it!went back 2 e hotel n lazed arnd..rented dvds n ordered room service..food wasnt 2 bad..o yea 4got 2 mention, had TOM YAM 4 lunch..hehe

mon morn!woke up abit late n went 2 e beach n walked down investigating shops..o bought stuff 4 few ppl!after tt we got ready n left 4 e airport..dis time flight was delayed by an hour n as i was waiting, mili called!haha so eager 4 mi 2 get back ah..o ya had TOM YAM again 4 lunch before leaving 4 e airport hehe..n u noe wat i got a call from e future!cause spore is 1 hour infront so wen mili called, it was like a call from e future!haha sweeeeeet!like hiro n ando in heroes..im hiro n my bro ando..wen i said tt out loud, my bro gave mi tt look..hehe...mum n bro said e heat was getting 2 mi(2 my head n 2 my skin, im darker!) o ya n as they were bringing us 2 e plane in a truck, we passed by another vehicle in which ppl who juz arrived..n there were 2 indian guys there!haha they were smiling n i was tempted 2 salute 2 dem...haha umm ok i became a little mad cause of e heat over there!i took pictures in e plane!haha of e clouds n such was nice..o n as we passed by malaysia i was like "hi logannnnn!!"haha hmmz ok reached back safely...

thailand was fun..e ppl were gd lookin!i expected them 2 be ugly but they r cute!they look like a mix of malays n chinese...they were kind 2!like i was in e truck n every1 we passed by, said hi!after dis trip i think my bro has a penchant 4 TOM YAM already..haha really e TOM YAM there is excellent..such a waste mili hehe but dun worry wen ur 20 plus i bring u...haha hmmz o yea 1 thing i didnt expect 2 happen, happened!so many ppl were msging mi!was i missed tt much!?haha was really touching even before i left so many msgs came..was really nice i felt e love peeps thanx!o n mili u hv proven urself 2 my mummy!hehe cause she was sayin how a true frend wld call 2 c if ur back!so now u dun hv 2 be scared of her haha!hmmz abt tt gohst in a bottle thingy..it cld be true cause ziwei was tellin mi abt it n he was asking mi 2 buy 4 him!but no way i dun like 2 meddle wif gohsts!well ok tts abt it i was dead tired!n still m...but will be goin out wif anu soon, according 2 her i hv no choice but 2 follow so since im her "guy" i shall be sincere...lol ok we shall not go into detail wif tt...k gd luck reading yet another o so long entry..till den dis is mi, ur worst nightmare, signing out

"baby u really drive mi COCONUTS!"

thailand, here comes mi!

2007-03-29T22:23:00.000+08:00

where can i start?few things happened lately, 1 of dem being my cuz, tanya, bday...happy bday dude!ur 1 year older n 1 year stupider!lol juz kidding...

i had a fight wif dad yesterday...a really stupid 1..cause i was supposed 2 meet him n get my dinner..so i got held up at home 4 awhile..n den he called n started shouting at mi, sayin how i m making him wait 4 him tt i hv no timing n he juz cut e line on mi..ppl who noe mi will understand how i hate it wen somebody juz cuts mi off like tt...not only is it rude,but u r one-sided..so ok i ran all e way n he started scolding mi there itself sayin how i made him wait for 5 min..n i was like 5 min????i thought hours!so i juz took e food n was juz shaking my head n walked away...really got pissed off..2 top tt off, pravin called n didnt say anything which mad mi more pissed...i didnt want 2 tok 2 anybody n mum noticed 2 but thank god she didnt ask much..sorry mili if i didnt reply u properly online hehe..now u noe..

i made a new frend in si n hes quite nice..he called mi yest n we were tokin till 4 am!hes really interesting wif all his stories..so hope 2 noe him better...n i hope i dun regret givin my no. 2 him...

i finally found e time 2 meet brindha, a very close frend of mine!she is some1 who has gone through e exact same things which im goin through now so anytime i hv a prob, i noe shes there...so its been years since i met up wif her..she had 2 free movie tix n decided 2 invite mi...so sweet!so we toked n den went 2 watch "the hitcher"...a thrilling movie tt made mi jump throughout!haha its abt dis bf n gf driving from 1 state 2 another..n on e way they bumped into some1 whos car broke down..they picked him up n tts wen he started 2 act weird n den attacked wif a knife!e couple kicked him out of e car immediately but guess wat?another family saw him on e road n picked him up!n e whole family died!n e police also came 2 noe at some pt n e whole force got killed by tt 1 psycho guy!in e end, e bf died cause his body was ripped into 2..by tt psycho la!so gruesome n graphic!final part, e psycho got caught but on e way 2 jail, he killed e police all!so left standing on e road was e gf n e psycho idiot..n finally e gurl shot him down!was really a mad movie wif alot of violence..n it was like, we hv 2 imagine wat happened next...so weird basic outline of e story is, pick up a stranger who happened 2 be a psycho...kill kill kill..n finish..haha ok movie was NC 16(violence) n they asked 4 ic..n tt lady said im underage n i was like WATTTTT???!!im 16 man..not even 16 but 17(soon)!!!haha den she look again n said o ya!haha brindha started sayin how i tricked every1 n how did i take my o levels if i wasnt 16!haha..ok sorry if i told e whole story abt e movie,cause some ppl rather watch den hear e ending, but dear mili requested 2 noe how e story went so there u go!ppl who dun wanna noe e story, im sure u can like not read tt section on ur own...

tml im goin thailand!partly excited, partly not, partly scared...hehe im complicated, deal wif it!i juz finished packing(11pm)n tts not even fully actually..tml flight is at 8 pm..ill be back on mon arnd 7pm..hopefully in 1 piece!shall c if i can get anything..ziwei was askin mi 2 find a "gohst in a bottle"thingy...ummm ok...i hv somehow become his "7 hand poker" buddy cause everytime im online he plays tt game wif mi..kinda getting bored of it but it gets funny at times we he starts his imagination!o ya n mili wants tom yam!haha confirm ill eat tt la!haha dun worry gurl ill eat 4 u 2!well okz shall tell yall how tt trip went..

a particular some1 has been missing in action 4 e past week..until i even had a dream abt him!n in tt dream i saw him but he cldnt c mi tt type of thing..n he was tokin 2 his mum!sayin i didnt call him or contact him n he was really upset!hahaha i dunnoe but wen i woke up i thought i shld somehow contact him..cld be a sign!!haha but i hv yet 2 do tt..hehe..miss u like crazy

rp called mi alot dis week..they seem 2 be rushing on few things..like my appointment!will be goin on 5th 2 install few things into lappy..skool will be starting!cant wait!!n before it does, shall go out watch movies!hehe mili is more eager, even now shes askin mi 2 watch!haha after i come back from thai...

ok la pravin n jivis bday r on 1st april..happy bday!shall call dem 2morow before i leave dis country..cause i dun really like 2 wish ppl after their bday..doesnt seem right...k makkal tts abt it c yall on mon..

"You look pretty sinking"

success!

2007-03-25T14:11:00.000+08:00

yay i did my speech n pulled it off!only greg n i did e topic abt men being betta cooks..out of 19 ppl..so anywayz greg went 1st n wen he said he chose tt topic, e gurls started tokin back!so i was like, shit i might hv picked e wrong topic..so wen it came 2 my turn, i said in my defence tt i juz found dis a topic i cld relate 2..but e ladies didnt even let mi complete my each pt in peace!haha kept arguing back.but in e end i said since e guys claim they r such great cooks y dun they start cookin up 4 us!haha den only e gurls came back 2 my side..hehe fun man..after session went 4 mass..after a very very long time!so i feel abit better now...after mass mum n i went 2 check out my bros excess group display n OMG!!!my bro was rapping!!lol he n dis guy were rapping lines from e bible haha was hilarious!!!but i must admit he was pretty gd..he was like a small boy waving half way 2 mum n i hehe...

k came back now m juz chillin...was on SI n dis guy sent mi a note...n hes really ugly!haha no offence but seriously look like some orru kaaran..anywayz i wanted 2 ignore him but i read his profile n he was claiming how ppl go 4 looks n dun wanna reply his msgs!so ok la pity e fella n i said hi wats up..n hes like nth how r u..i said fine u?n he said fine 2...tts it?!come on dude u asked 4 a reply n now u dun wanna tok properly?so i thought i start e 1st qus n asked 4 his age..he juz replyed, not askin any qus..so i replyed sayin o im 17...den i was thinkin if hes gonna reply "ok" alone, im gonna ignore him completely..guess wat?he replyed juz "ok" n tts e end of him!haha sheesh he tok so big in his profile but in person hes juz exactly as he described others..get a life dude

i dunnoe if im goin 4 e mr.bean movie..cause anu is showin no sign..she seems busy, i dunnoe..offered 2 follow her tml but dunnoe tt as well...hehe wateva it aint my stuff..

k juz gonna chill now n prepare 4 thailand!speakin of thailand, during mass, e priest was like "n we pray 4 e unnecessary killing in e south of thailand" n i was like WAT!???haha n mum purposely started 2 tease mi sayin tt yea we r goin 2 e south of thailand!haha kk will stop now

"I look at you with such distain"

y men r betta cooks?

2007-03-24T19:21:00.000+08:00

hmmz ok u noe abt tt abortion topic?i decided 2 ditch it n go ahead wif "why men r better cooks"..haha i kinda agree wif e title so let mi share wif u makkalz wif wat i hv so far...

-men seem 2 hv a better sense of taste n smell therefore it is an advantage 4 dem!they r able 2 detect wats wrong wif e dish immediately unlike women..

-men tend 2 "explore" more den women...they wld do anything 2 make their cooking styles interesting n result wif an excellent dish..unlike women who juz follow cook books, men break e rulez..

-men r simply more interested in food den women..hvnt u seen guys eating like pandis!n boy do they eat plate after plate n sometimes even finish e gurls food.."e way 2 a man's heart is thru his stomach"

yep so tts wat i hv so far..my conclusion is tt since men r betta cooks, they shld be e 1 cookin up 4 e ladies!hehe...k its not like im supporting e guys k,i juz do agree wif dis..cause my bro is always cookin 4 mi n wateva he cooks seem betta den mine..he has a terrific sense of smell n taste..n he explores e ingredients he has n try 2 add dem all!n most of all..he pigs out on wat he had cooked..hehe c smth i can relate 2 therefore chose dis topic..now i hope tt i wont make a fool of myself in front of e class tml..hehe wat do i hv 2 worry abt anyway im a debater n speech person dude!kk im waiting 4 dad 2 call cause he says hes getting satay 4 mi...tts right mili, SATAY!!!muhaha lalalalala i hv satay u dun hv!boo hoo!haha ok cya!

"won't you take me by the hand, take me some where new..."

come 1 come all!

2007-03-23T21:39:00.000+08:00

i was quite disturbed dis morn...cause i was 2 meet up my pri skool frend, nithya(my nine years frend!)...e disturbing part was tt i had many vibrations goin on under my pillow due 2 becky, my phone!nithya kept msging mi e times we were 2 meet...logan also sent a msg abt manis bday party n nicky boy sent mi a msg abt some prob he was hving..gosh even at night im not left alone!haha anywayz was all gd i was 2 meet up wif nithya n her guy yoga n muna!seems they wanted 2 meet mi so finally e day had come!

i reached earlier at northpt n was searching 4 dem n wen i did boy was i shocked!cause 4 1, nithya changed alot in appearance n her guy was bloody tall!!haha but they really looked nice together..so anywayz yoga was like "ah yes u must be rachel"..haha he really has tt decent look...anywayz met muna also n we really clicked instantly...went 2 burger king n juz chilled wif dem...i blenja e gurl n in return she paid 4 neoprint!along dis small expedition i met few of their frends..hehe after roamin arnd abit we went 2 yogas house n den 2 nithyas house..met her mum after a long time..o yea on e way 2 her house i bumped into ms priyaa n ms anu!gave anu her forms n skirt den so i didnt hv 2 go all e way 2 her place!tired la..hehe anywayz i went back arnd 6 wif muna n now m home!

i cant wait 4 e next outing wif dem..nithya really is lucky 2 get yoga!wat a nice couple they really match...hehe its really hard 2 get a guy like yoga these days so i wish dem both e best!

ok i wanna say smth abt MCR(my chemical romance)..i juz saw e video "i dont love u"..n it ROCKED!!well as usual of course..but was really cool wen e guitar juz exploaded!but was a pity 2 c such a gd lookin thing go into pieces but e way it exploaded at e right beat really was awesome!!hehe

anywayz now i hv 2 do dis speech thingy on abortion..church stuff..feels like skool work..hehe they juz wanna test our presentation skills tts all..ok now im juz lazing arnd waiting 4 mili gal 2 come cause i wanna noe abt e laptop thingy..o n logan showed mi few clips of him dancing n i really cldnt stop laughing la!!hahaha he recorded himself n in 1 clip,mani walked in on him!haha u shld hv seen e look logan had on his face!!!!!hahaha okok save him some face..anyway still think priyaas "wat e hell look" is e best!!haha ill take tt 2 my grave man...classic..

kz 1 more thing im proud 2 report is tt my 3 boyz r peace wif mi!haha yes m tokin 2 dem properly, though 1 has smth 2 tell mi n i hope tt happens soon or my mind will continue spinning..ok ill leave it at tt peaceout homies..

"This ring here represents my heart, but there's just one thing I need from you (say "I do")"

cant get u out of my head

2007-03-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

im bloody bored..i mean it man!theres seriously nth 2 do!NOTHING!!i woke up at 1230 n juz slacked on e sofa all e way till now!hehe...quality time wif lappy!well was juz chatting n finding music...hmmz pravin didnt tok properly but u noe wat, hes not as impt as logan...i miss tt fella la!still waiting 4 things 2 turn out well...m thinkin abt another body as well..dunnoe how hes doin cause hvnt heard from him..hope hes ok..dunnoe if my feelings r leavin mi...

hmm right now dis stupid poly enrolment thingy is irritating mi..m so confused wif it!!n mili is juz as confused 2!haha c how it goes

ok right now m chatting wif mili n shes tellin mi proudly how she is colouring a doll picture!!ahaha so cute!she steal e baby's colouring book n she colouring..on top of tt she can tell mi 2 try!haha miss those colouring days...i was e best in e class in kindergarden!hehe still rmb..

hmmz m goin 2 thailand on e 30th of march i think..4 days later ill be back...juz goin 4 a small holiday n u noe whos payin?mi...my money from ntuc is goin!at 1st i agreed 2 give mum e money but now i cant seem 2 part!haha anywayz i keep e money n do wat, im not a spender...juz e 3 of us r goin dunnoe wat we will do also..tt time we went bali n my bro got sick n stayed in e hotel..but i think he was juz lazy 2 go round..so 2 make mum not regret e trip, i decided 2 go arnd bali n we really did c alot...was worth it la so juz hope dis thailand trip will be fun...n safe..cause seems e ppl carry guns there n attack at night!!god, hear mi out a sec..pls keep us safe wen we r there!i wanna live n experience life!!

kk right now m tryin 2 propose 2 mili..nth new i hv proposed many times haha!singing 2 her akons i wanna love u..hehe shes expecting mi 2 sing e 3rd line but i dun want 2 or it will get personal if u noe wat i mean..hehehe k im no les, juz damn bored..shes juz as bored since shes colouring tt doll pic..haha k la wateva im typing is crap n i dun think i hv anything else 2 type..hv 2 go 2 e stupid bank n i honestly dunnoe wat 2 do..haha k la gd night yall

"im here without u baby, but u still own my lonely mind"

take mi by e hand take mi somewhere new

2007-03-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

hello my fellow souls...right now im juz bored n home alone..which means i start 2 think..deep...wat happens wen u find e right person eh?wat they call ur "soul mate"...how do u noe hes "e 1"...wld he be exactly like u or juz e opposite?many keep askin wat i expect from a guy or wat type of guy im lookin 4...u noe wat, i honestly dun care..appearance wateva i dun care..character n appearance changes overtime...so now im juz waiting c...but wat if he comes n i wont even realise hes e 1..haha sounds stupid!wat if u met e guy whos hand fits urs perfectly n u fit in his arms like it was meant 2 be...n u feel like u noe him 4 generations, share alot of things!n u noe, juz be urself arnd each other..ok im juz dreaming right?2 bad nobody is here 2 wake mi up so till den ill keep my fantasys !right now i do miss a certain some1 but i dunnoe if i shld be...hehe crap la im juz damn confused...i had more experience den anybody wld think...tts y im controlling my feelings...right now im becoming emo thinkin abt all dis...i really miss my "twin"..hes e only 1 i feel like tokin 2 right now...pravin decided 2 act diff wif mi after i told him i had enough..2 hell wif tt la..do wat u want shut mi out if u want!!honestly i hv only god 2 turn 2 n hope 4 some light n 2 help certain ppl...ok im juz 2 confused n messed up 2 write anything more so maybe ill continue dis another time...

"And every night there's a new crowd, but it's always you i'm singin about"

turn mi on baby ; P

2007-03-16T14:15:00.000+08:00

Turn me on

For the longest while we jamming in the Party

And you're wining on me

Pushing everything

Right back on top of me (Yea - hey- ai)

But if you think you're gonna get away from me

You better change your mind

You're going home

You're going home with me tonight

So let me hold you

Girl caress my body

You got me going crazy

You turn me on, turn me on

Let me jam you

Girl wine all around me

You got me going crazy

You turn me on, turn me on

One hand on the ground & Bumper cock sky high

Wining hard on me

Got the Python Hollerin' for mercy (Yea- hey - ai)

Then I whisper in her ear

So wine harder

And then she said to me

Boy just push that thing

Push it harder back on me

Chorus

Girl Just Hug Me, Hug Me,

Kiss Me, Squeeze Me

Hug Me, Hug Me,

Kiss & Caress Me

verse 1

chorus

Hug Me, Hug Me,

Kiss Me, Kiss Me

Hug Me, Hug Me,

Kiss & Caress Me

Hug Me, Hug Me,

Squeeze Me, Squeeze Me

Hug Me, Hug Me,

Kiss & Caress Me

dis is a song called turn me on by kevin lyttle..its 1 of my all time fav songs cause of e meaning n beat..it juz makes it such a sweet simple song wif full of passion!another frend of mine loves dis song as well so i dedicate it 2 him!more songs 2 come in e future

u dunnoe wat im feelin

2007-03-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

my pillow started 2 vibrate at 9am in e morn thanks 2 miligal who was callin..she wanted 2 noe if we were goin 4 e movie but i was 2 sleepy 2 reply!hehe den went back 2 sleep n den my pillow started 2 vibrate again at 10, by priyaa..dis time she confirmed abt e movie n we all met up at noon..i was intrested in music & lyrics..but wen we went there, i was keen in stomp e yard..so i gave e makkal a choice(music & lyrics or stomp e yard) n all agreed 4 music & lyrics..iyo wat a waste e movie was such a bore!1st we went in as though we owned e cinema cause nobody was there!well few came later on n tts it...but priyaas n milis reaction were 2 much!haha laughed like hell as usual!den they blamed mi 4 choosing dis movie la but EXCUSE MI, i gave u pandis a choice!ahaha still we had fun..cant wait 4 mr.beans movie..!anywayz chilled at e coffee shop n anu n priyaa were tokin 2 their new ppl..hehe n mili n i were like,wen will our time come..!well tts all nth much happened..i changed my skin!i had a betta 1 but it didnt turn out well so dis was my 2nd choice...but i like tt rocker boy!n i was wondering if i cld put a song n looks like u can!so now im happy, done my blog n friendster skin!n i think its my best work so far.......

This aint a scene, its a godamn arms race!!

crisis!

2007-03-14T11:11:00.000+08:00

so i woke up early yest 2 meet up wif e gang..priyaa already started jc n was hving a 4 hour break..so anu mili n i went 2 keep her company..we had breaky at a coffee shop n settled there itself..there was dis cute aunty cleaner who came 2 our table n called mili beautiful gurl, mi a sexy gurl n anu wonderful gurl...den priyaa was waiting 4 her name n u noe wat tt lady said?dun disturb my DAUGHTER!lol shld hv seen pp's reaction!its like tt "wat e hell" look!hehe kz after sending her off e 3 of us went 2 bugis 2 settle some payment n on e way were tryin 2 find out anu's appeal 4 a poly..n she got her choice!so now she is joining mili n i in e same poly!we r gonna bring it down i tell ya!priyaa's appeal got in 2..but she decided 2 stick wif jc..so ok from there we went 2 hv macs n were tokin abt few disgusting yet knowledgable stuff..n mili didnt want 2 hear it but she had no way 2 escape!hehe dis anu started tokin so loud!haha ppl all giving us a look!hehe k after tt anu n i were lookin arnd n she found her THIS FASHION..some clothing shop tt shes crazy abt..so we were there n it started 2 rain!n guess wat?half way my slipper broke!how nice i had 2 drag all e way 2 a shoe shop on e other end!haha anu kept laughin...but i found e situation hilarious as well!but ok la managed 2 buy a silver slipper..happy wif it..dis is e 2nd time my slipper tore so slippers n i dun seem 2 go well..hmm den only we went home..got drenched but tt was nice..rainy days rock!so now m juz home chillin..still feelin sick from e chalet..will be goin vivocity tml i think..man i juz cant wait 2 start poly la!so interesting..o n i wanna say smth 2 passerby...dude u got 5 A1s!!be happy!of course work harder u will get more!determination is e key word!sure u can make it..dun stress urself 2 much cause in e end it will cripple u...relax urself nn juz go all e way ya..seriously e ppl tt i noe who study like mad, got lower marks den expected..so juz do ur best..kk tts abt it RIC out.

my day with noel nathan

2007-03-12T12:51:00.000+08:00

on e 6/3/2007, i rachel charles came face to face wif noel nathan...lol ok y do i sound so dramatic bout tt?k anywayz let mi intro u guys 2 noel...he is 1 of my close online buddies who i met through friendster few mths back...i got 2 noe bout him more n so did he...hes from penang..so how is it i met him?e fella was goin 2 aus for 3 mths 2 do a course n he had 2 take his flight in spore...so he requested tt we both meet up n i agreed..he came at 2.30 pm n his next flight was at 9pm so i had 2 keep him company...o n he is e 1st online buddy i met!so tts a lil smth bout him so now let mi begin e story....

in e morn i had 2 follow anu n haji 2 rp cause they wanted 2 appeal 4 another course...mili was kind enough 2 join us...after tt anu n i headed 2 our individual destinations, mine being changi airport...i reached at abt 1 pm n was toking 2 pp n anu(conference) cause it seems tt there had been an earthquake in indo n spore felt it!priyaa n my mum felt it!haha n pp was like"i dun wanna die!!"n anu was like"rachel come back!!i dun wanna be alone!"n mi?i didnt care really!i wanted 2 c noel!lol so ok i was sitting down waiting 4 him n i kinda lost track of time...n den,i saw some1 walk out of e gate..suspected it was him but i thought i shld juz wait..n den noel came n sat beside mi!haha so smoothly n he started complaining how tiring e flight was..in my mind i was wondering,tiring?u juz sat down e entire time not stand up!hehe but ok he shook my hand n intro himself as though he neva met mi before..!i gave him a pair of ear rings as a gift n thankfully he liked it! ok he said show mi spore!so i brought him arnd wif e help of e MRT!noel was scared of e speed la!haha he was glued 2 e pole!he kept tellin mi how diff i looked from e pics...ok 1st stop we went 2 vivocity n roamed arnd abit n went 2 eat at a hotdog outlet...tt fella ordered such a huge burger!!n mi, a tiny hotdog!but he insisted tt he pay 4 it so ok fine!n my god u shld hv seen him eat!!real pandi la tt 1..cause i was tokin on e phone wif priyaa n den mili..n within tt time he ate my fries!ahaha n was eating my hotdog dressing!haha he whacked e burger nicely...was eating like a baby 2!haha food all over his mouth!den ok i gave him 1 bite of my hotdog n let him finish my fries n drink..poor fella must hv been starving...after tt we made our way 2 e fountain of wealth cause he wanted 2 c tt..we met priyaa n anu on e way cause they both wanted 2 c how noel looked like!on e way tt loosu made mi panic alot cause he kept whistling at gals n askin 4 their no n juz flirting wif dem!!i didnt noe wat 2 do cause malaysia is totally diff from spore!as in e ppl r not as friendly here!but ok he cut mi some slack in e end...we met e 2 babies n had some fun!noel kept bullying priyaa!haha was really cute "quack" "quack"!cause according 2 noel,priyaa was walking like a duck!hahaha so ok we took few pics n saw e fountain..after tt he kept askin 4 some booze but no way did i buy 4 him!after tt we left 4 e airport again n we were hving a hard time finding his flight!but we mangaed n were rushing..lucky we came earlier cause his flight had moved 2 8.10pm!n we were there at 8!juz in time...it was sad 2 c him off really cause i had such a great day wif him,we laughed e entire time n juz had alot of fun!we hugged n he gave mi a gd bye kiss on e cheek n left...n tt was it, dunnoe wen ill c him again..hopefully in 3 mths time...well tts abt it!of course alot of other things happened but dun expect mi 2 write dem all here it wld be 2 much!so right now i juz hope hes doin fine in aussy...both of us were glad 2 meet at last cause we really clicked instantly n had e same thinkin!so cool!haha well okiez ill stop here will let yall noe wen i meet him again!

jennys bday

2007-03-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

i got back yest night arnd 11 from jennys bday at pasir ris...we went there on fri night n stayed there..e whole thing was really a mess i must say..there was hardly any food n anything!damn boring!upinder,jen,anu n i were there 1st n were starving!luckily we had some hotdogs wif us so tt lasted us till mahesh, wansha n selen came wif mee goreng...we started playin truth or dare n boy did i hear alot...ALOT...hehe anywayz all went inside e tent except 4 mi jenny n mahesh...o anu was on e phone tt time..she was on e phone almost throughout e night la..wif priyaa n few other ppl,she was really bored!anywayz dis mahesh n jen bought 3 bottles of dunnoe wat vodka liqour all n came...so 3 of us shared n drank n played card games...we kept e vodka cause wanted 2 share wif prabha as he was on his way from work..within tt time e 3 of us started 2 get high abit la..hehe lucky anu was there 2 watch us...den wen prabha came we opened e bottle n man did they drink fast!i was e only slow 1 there la...hehe all gulp so ok i joined in n den,it started 2 get 2 mi...by tt time everybody came round us 2 c how we get mabo la..haha jenny was e 1st den mi n mahesh n praby!haha but e 2 guys were ok in e end..strong ppl...according 2 all of dem, im very cute wen im drunk!lol i dunnoe y la but they said i was like"anne 1 more glass!"haha ya tts wat i said 2 mahesh after few cups of tt vodka!but den...jenny started her drama..earlier on she had a fight wif upinder so she started 2 bring tt up..n den upinder got angry all of a sudden..tts wen i snapped back...alot of shouting happened n it really started 2 get bad...anu n i brought jenny 2 e toilet where she puked..juz calmed her down n after few hours later she was ok wif upinder...made her go 2 bed n everything was calm in e end...everybody went 2 bed except 4 anu,mi,mahesh n prabha...mahesh made us play his stupid card games over n over la!from 4 am till 8am!i asked them 2 slap mi few times cause e vodka was starting 2 take a toll on mi...but by morn we were all ok..e guys were surprised tt i was strong...honestly i was 2!guess it was cause i saw jen cry n upinder angry..tts wen i really woke up..if not..i also wld hv been knocked out!anu n i left earlier cause we were sick..e guys were askin mi 2 stay another night 2 hv another drink,but i had enough n juz wanted 2 leave...den mahesh was like..next party come, we shall share..haha really lucky 2 get these frends..e guys didnt take advantage of us, they helped us all..n were responsible also...well mahesh wanted 2 c mi drunk, so there u go!lol ok tt was e best night i had, in terms of drinkin...

i hv 2 say smth abt avril lavigne...my cuz tanya told mi how suckish she got wif her singing n dressing in her new video,girlfriend...i wanted 2 c 4 myself n i did few days back...at 1s i was ok wif e fishnet stockings n small tiny shorts...n den i was happy 2 c her in a punkish outfit..so i was thinkin 2 myself,its not so bad wat y e big fuss?but DEN....avril started 2 dance...n wen i mean dance, i mean e sluty dance!i almost died there on e sofa watching her!she was like so gwen stefani!juz imagine a punk rocker,emo gurl...suddenly wearing tight shorts n dancing like a chick!it was totally abnormal!!!avril was my idol,she was diff from e rest..n now..shes juz e same n rapping...wat e hell i juz stared into space after e video ended...i hope avril wakes up

happy bday daddy!

2007-03-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

so im back from tt little outing...n im out!hahaha kz well wat happened was..there were 12 of us..i didnt meet 6 of my realatives in like,soooo many years..so dis was a reunion of my fathers side of e family..my 2 cousins were really...tall!haha but was really gd tt we all clicked immediately!really i wasnt lookin foward 2 dis whole dinner cause i was afraid of bein an outkast..went 4 dads sake cause it was his bday...but all was gd in e end..boy did we laugh alot...n of course there were those cute indian waiters walkin arnd..lol ok enough wif tt i had 2 wear a stupid skirt!dads wish...haha i looked cute i must say!compliments 2 miss rachel...ok so we were eatin n all wen our waiter came n offered wine...my god it didnt take a sec 4 mi 2 ans 2 tt!!i ended up hving 3 glasses of red wine n 1 glass of champaign..was really excellent!dad said i was gettin tipsy..well i almost dropped my glass so maybe i was!haha usually if im drunk i wld dance or tok crap or juz sit in a corner n think abt life la...so 2day i was juz keepin 2 myself n thinkin abt certain ppl..ahem my babies shld noe who la..hehe..genting..some guy n 1 other pandi...all came 2 mind...half way my uncle came up wif dis speech on how family is impt...right tts true la, tell tt after so many years wen few relatives didnt bother 2 visit..hmph nvm...uncle joe drove mi bro n dad home...n it was ridiculous man!e way he drove gave stress 2 my aunt!hahaha she kept scolding him n really..he drove damn slow!haha funny sia..but i started 2 wonder, how if my husband n i like tt in e car..haha i wldnt scold him but will be laughin at him!!!anywayz i got home i settled on e sofa..n mili baby did dis backgrnd of mi n umm..somebody la..hehe was really cute n sweet..but i really didnt noe wat i was sayin 2 her..think e wine settled in pretty gd...k well i dunnoe wat 2 say next la...sleep like a pandi maybe..4get e world 4 a few hours maybe......

im back!

2007-03-08T13:55:00.000+08:00

im back from my so called camp at anu's house..was there on sat n now its thur so u do e math..n i hv 2 c her face tml!hehe will be overnighting at e beach 4 jennys bday...i like it dis way..not stayin at home alwayz n facin mums uncountable qus...anywayz i juz wanna say I GOT INTO RP!!!well im not as excited but guess everybody i noe seems 2 be goin there..but hey i got a course tt i liked..biomedical science...its e closest 2 psychology...mili got e same as well!will be cool, can go 2 her house n hv lunch dinner all!haha self invitation..u c milis house is near RP!so cool 4 her..anu dear got into engineering!haha n she hated it so went 2 apply again at RP...pp island got into yjc but think shes havin 2nd thoughts..juz hope she can get her course n not hv probs la..currently prayin 4 her n anu n jivi n haji..tt they all get into e right courses...as 4 mili n i...hope we dun suffer la!!anywayz shall tell u wat happened at anu's place..1st night pp stayed over as well...n i was sleepin in e middle..i cldnt sleep at all cause e 2 of dem kept kicking mi!!i woke up at 3am only 2 feel alot of pain in my right ribs...n i suspected anu cause next moment she suddenly lifted her leg n kicked me in e belly!!oooo e pain i felt..priyaa on e other side kicked my ass..hehe woke up soar...went out wif dem pass few days...i broke priyaas hairband!n i thought i broke her skull!haha cause my hand hit her head n i heard a crack sound!lol damn funny la...anywayz 2night i hv dis dinner wif dad n his side of e family..im honestly not lookin forward 2 it cause im not so close 2 tt side of e family...its been years since i met them...but im juz goin 2 make dad happy...its his bday btw...okiez shall stop here 4 now..will update after dinner at marriots...1 reason y im interested 2 go there is cause there r few cute malaysian guys workin there!lol ok tts 2 much...speakin of which, i was attcked by 4 ite indians!!they tried communicating wif mi in e train on my way home but i was listening 2 my mp3 so i pretended not 2 hear!lol 2 much la these ppl...kk im out

F.R.E.E.D.O.M

2007-02-28T23:55:00.001+08:00

my 1st day jobless!well, yall noe wat i mean!2day wasnt really planned...anu asked 2 meet up after her work n so i did..arnd noon we were at ntuc buying choco n sushi!i was craving 4 it cause wen i was working, customers wld keep brining sushi 2 my counter!anywayz as we were leaving, our boss mr simon was calling us cause he wanted 2 thank us!so sweet of him..my 1st job n im very lucky 2 get dis type of boss n nice ppl 2 work wif...anywayz anu n i headed 2 jurong?y?GIANT!!!hahaha finally i hv always wanted 2 go there ever since e convo wif logan n a bunch of peeps...i thought there was no giant in spore but apparantly, there is!so i promised logy tt i wld take a pic as evidence n i did!i do wat i say...so we looked arnd n boy was it...giant...!so many stuff...we went daiso,dis 2 dollar shop n got few things 4 kv,kandhan n vikram, n den we headed back 2 amk by train..on e way we were followed by 2 malaysian guys!!was so exciting but scary!cause they were opposite whistling at us n they got into e same train..from 1 end they slowly moved towards us...in e end they stood infront of anu n i n we both didnt noe wat 2 do but laugh!!n u noe they said bye before they got down!lol funny man...we got down n went 2 anu's house..had great dinner there..we fried appalam n thank god i didnt burn down e house...!after tokin alot n crapping arnd, i left...reached home abt 11 n here i m!i like days like dis cause it was all unplanned n it was raining!it rained n neva stopped!!i feel very relaxed at e moment..calm..its very cool..n i dun hear any sound from mum or bro..juz e way i like it..its juz so irritating 2 hv dem arnd at times so i try 2 get away from it all..like 2day...will be stayin at sentosa 4 3 days 4 jennys bday so cant wait 4 tt...sunday is comin soon n so is noel...i still dunnoe where 2 bring him!call myself a local??n i didnt even noe there was GIANT in spore...sheesh.hmm mili juz told mi tt vijey wanted anu n my no cause he wanted 2 prank call us..2 much la tt fella..like small kid,wanna prank call all!haha c wat i mean wen i say i had a gd 1st job?e ppl rock!...hehe kk tts abt it..will be heading down 2 darlings house tml as well..peaceout
If it looks like im laughin im really juz askin 2 leave

last day!

2007-02-27T11:24:00.000+08:00

2day is my last day at NTUC!!!nobody can feel e JOY in my soul im feelin!!ok la i noe im gonna miss workin wif those insane ppl..really my ntuc is e most happening i think...e supervisors n boss r so open n talkative!will miss their singing n bullying...vijey kept tellin mi 2 do my work properly since i was leaving...!yest was damn empty..i was so bored!until i got e big fish...big fish,in cashier lang, means u get e largest amount of items 2 scan...3 trolleys full i tell ya!!actually e opposite cashier was supposed 2 do it but she was leaving...so she asked mi 2 help n i agreed cause i juz saw 1 trolley...n den it all came..my god e customer was stacking dem high!n all e other cashiers started 2 watch mi..1 was kind enough 2 help mi though...in e end i did 2 trolleys while another did e third...total 3 trolleys came up 2 700 bucks!some party they must be having...anywayz it was like a gd send off 4 mi!hehe..anu gurly was supposed 2 take over my counter but hui han came n told mi she wasnt comin..so after work i called her up n it seems she went wif jenny 2 book e chalet n was running late..n at tt time her grandfather had fainted!so she took e day off...i cant wait 4 jennys chalet!its a gathering of old frends n i might i mention a way 2 get away from home!3 days of peace...shld be fun...2day i woke up from a terrible dream!i was being chased by 8 huge guys who wanted smth from mi, forgot wat it was..n i didnt give it so they wanted 2 rape mi 4 tt!!i was running arnd e whole of np...were poly students...n i was msging logan throughout e whole way 4 help!n wen i was hiding, logan called mi!n i started 2 cry 2 him n he didnt noe wat 2 do but juz keep mi on e line!hahaha dunnoe y it had 2 be logan..guess hes always been there 4 mi...anywayz suddenly dis other guy, neva met before, he came 2 my rescue!he saw mi hiding n knew wat was up so he showed mi a way 2 escape!n tts wen e 8 guys saw us n started 2 chase e both of us!n tts wen i woke up...its kinda funny but intimidating...n tts wen i saw pravin n my long time frend priyas msg!was comforting...prav 2 had a nightmare!haha coincidence...so was tokin 2 dem throughout e morn..now m not sure wat 2 do..lappy is still being configured...he shld be in woring condition by 2night after morgan comes..well hopefuly...was hoping 2 speak 2 naveen but fell asleep on e sofa waiting 4 him...hope 2 c him tonight after work...alright im out..
dis is RIC speaking 2 ur inner soul, peace

can u take it all away?

2007-02-25T21:11:00.000+08:00

its an hour after dhool n im watchin raven now...NUS deserved it so was happy wen they won...diversity 2...tridiac didnt make it though..liked them alot but guess their range of dance was limited..anywayz congrates 2 dem all 4 makin it so far!i cant wait 4 tue...cause tts e last day im workin at NTUC!!wheeehee!no more scanning!sir vijey is holding a grudge against anu n i 4 tt..haha!mili still wants 2 work...i dont want 2!i need my life back!n its really spoiling my junior cats meeting n church...i went 4 e meeting 2day after so many weeks n daniel was like " rachel CHARLES!ur back!!"..haha theres abt 3 rachels, including mi , so they call my full name...anywayz was gd 2 be back..after tt i had 2 drag my feet 2 work but before tt met anu 4 lunch n toked abt few things...my buddy noel is comin over 2 spore next week..well actually hes heading towards aussie island but he has 2 take e plane in spore...so shall be meeting him...e other night at abt 4am, i was having a nice dream wen my pillow started 2 vibrate...n everytime i picked up, e person hung up..happened 4 abt 8 times before he said hello..was a malaysia no n i recognised e voice 2 be noels...den we were msging n he was saying he cldnt sleep..cldnt sleep?!so must wake mi up 4 tt!!haha n mid way he can ask mi y m i awake, y im not sleepy!!1 hour later he finally declared he was sleepy so tt was tt...logan left 4 kedah yest n reached 2day...he must be dreadfully tired cause he had classes...we had another misunderstanding but tt was ok in e end...but still i made him upset n tt hurts mi inside...1 day ill explain 2 him everything...there was a cyclone thingy near mauritius n it was pretty bad..pravy was tellin mi abt e strong winds n how trees were comin down 1 by 1..was checkin e net 4 him on e weather...it got worse over e weekend..was prayin 4 him 2 be safe n 2day morn e cyclone fool was gone n everythings alright...lucky spore is a safe country..it will take centuries 4 a tornado 2 pass by!hmmm kelly is missin in action..think hes runaway..again...which means i hv 2 go hunting...haha really is a cute little fur ball!oooo i got a lap top!finally!my mums frend gave it 2 mi cause she was buying a new 1..its in perfect condition n i named it lappy!hehe my name is on it as well!its upgraded 2!so ill be spending my days wif lappy, becky n kelly!(laptop,phone,cat)o looky cat is on e table!dun hv 2 go hunting den...i feel like reading a book...hehe dunnoe y..anywayz nth much is happening at work..lesser ppl after cny...gd but boring...2day dis guy tried 2 hold my hand while taking e plastic bag!lol aint happening dude...i still like e chef story best!haha tt really made mi laugh..member any1?kk shall stop here cause i think tts abt it
This pain u gave 2 mi!

feelin unmeish

2007-02-22T12:26:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe y im feelin down 4 e past few days...n its starting 2 show through...suddenly feel so miserable n alone...its true,its cause of certain things tt i wish 2 juz put an end 2...its funny how e last person u think wld care wld come up 2 u n ask wats wrong...pavan was askin where his cheerie piglet(yes,me) was...y i was feelin so mood out...well i cldnt explain y i was like tt at tt moment, but felt betta after tokin 2 him 4 awhile...logan suspected smth as well...right now he says "happy is limited edition so value e time wen ur happy"...very true...cause tts wat i feel now...was miserable n den logan added afew ppl into a conference n i saw e opportunity 2 get back at e boy ever since tt GIANT incident!i made new frends within tt time as well n we all had fun...tt was a moment 2 value, cause wen i left i fell back 2 square 1....miserable...was dragging my feet at orchard road n even mum noticed e silence...but wen i was home, my bro made mi laugh cause he was parading arnd e house in his new slippers..looked ridiculous really...another moment 2 value...its true how happiness can be a limited edition...n now i think i shld juz keep tt happiness..y let u bother mi, u dun even care abt my well being...i juz wanna start poly, a new life..a new beginning...
listen, im alone at e crossroads

break

2007-02-21T12:57:00.000+08:00

so 2day is my break day..sweeeeeet!went work 4 1 day n now m on break!haha...well m tokin 2 logan..literally..through a mic!tt time we were tokin n he took advantage..by askin mi 2 sing!haha yes he still wants mi 2 sing his 7 songs in dunnoe wat 7 min?!haha so yea now m juz bored at home..nth 2 do, nobody home..shld be goin out later at night 4 shopping!gonna spend!hehe well okz tts abt it cya!
was dreamin while i drove e long straight road ahead

hv u ever really loved a woman?

2007-02-20T01:04:00.000+08:00

u.....u really disgust mi sometimes u noe tt?wats ur prob man?!seriously wat do u want from mi huh?1 moment ur tokin abt ur loved 1, missing her..e next ur callin mi up only 2 give e excuse tt u want 2 hear my voice...!u really r misleading mi u noe tt dear?u tell mi all e things i wanna hear n den u go tokin on abt her...wat r u tryin 2 proof!?u take mi piece by piece n den throw mi right back 2 where i 1st was...da u make mi so confused sometimes...sometimes u give mi hints 2 stay though u tell mi e opposite..i do get e hints, juz tt i wanna ignore dem...i dun wanna face e fact really, it juz scares mi...its been wat, 5 days since i heard from u?really tells mi alot now...u juz sometimes piss mi off n make mi fed up of everything i do...n den u somehow hv a way 2 pull mi back..wat m i, some yoyo toy thingy u can play wif !?roll mi away n pull mi back?1 day tt string will break den how?wat u gonna do jhan?honestly i dun wanna lose u but dis is really upsetting mi day n night...always occupying my mind...so da,tell mi smth hv u ever really loved a woman?to really love a woman, to understand her, u gotta know her deep inside...Hear every thought ,see every dream n give her wings when she wants to fly..wen u love a woman, tell her that shes really wanted..tell her that shes the one..Cause she needs somebody to tell her that its gonna last forever...To really love a woman...let her hold you til u know how she needs to be touched..Youve gotta breathe her,really taste her till you can feel her in your blood..n when you can see your unborn children in her eyes..u know u really love a woman..u got to give her some faith, hold her tight..a little tenderness,gotta treat her right..she will be there for u, takin good care of you..so tell mi da hv u ever really loved a woman?i noe u hv n i noe u always will..love her.....so dun play ur games wif mi

CNY day

2007-02-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

o goodness yest was a crazy day man...so at arnd 4 i met up wif anu n we went 2 newton 2 eat at hajiras fathers shop...n juz 2 get there, we went 1 big round..i also dunnoe y..in other words we were abit lost..so once we got arnd 2 their place, we saw faizelu cutting onions n habib sleepin!so cute faizel was shocked 2 c us...den he sat us down n toked 2 us abt our results..we ate roti john, was very nice...n guess wat?we got e food 4 free!so sweet of dem!so from there we went 2 novena 2 give rasi amma her food..of course bought choco there n left 4 yishun 2 watch norbit..we didnt dare watch a tamil movie on a sunday cause of all e oorus...hehe so yea norbit was a NC16 movie..n damn was it funny!anu started clapping and laughing at 1 pt!!hahaha!but really was ridiculously funny!after e movie we both kept laughing occasionally!n we went 2 dis arcade n tried dis gun game n were really horrible at it!we went home laughin in e train cause anu started her "mangadu" nonsence!haha got home at abt 11 n was chatting till 2am..n i woke up at 10 cause of some stupid lion dance..but no prob i went right back 2 sleep n woke up at 2 pm cause of my alarm...missed breaky again..no biggy...so here i m..dreading tml cause of work..haiz life is such a pain in e ass at e moment..i thought id neva say dis but i wanna go back 2 skool already...

happy cny!!

2007-02-18T13:48:00.000+08:00

i neva thought tt i wld say dis but THANK GOD ITS CNY!!tts cause i get a break 4rom work 4 2 days!so much JOY..hehe gosh yest wasnt so pack but boy did my arms ache...so last night i came home n slept at 2am n woke up at 1pm..hehe yep i was dead tired..n now anu is having plans 2 go out somewhere..she wants 2 go vivocity n some concert thingy..so see where tt goes later on..our planning all last min la..but tts wat makes my life exciting..well in a way it does!i feel like goin 2 my cuz house....dun wanna stay home alwayz..hv nth 2 do here..well ok i hv nth else 2 say so dis is where it ends.

plea 4 peace

2007-02-16T11:18:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe wats wif e title..but tts e song m listening 2 now!hehe yest was damn pack at work..NTUC is open till 2 am (yest n 2day)..but thank god e chief cashier let anu n i off earlier at 12...hope she does tt 2day cause i hv 2 work from 9-5 e next day!!dead tired man..feel i hv no life really..n im missing all my meals!cause morn i wake up late n miss breakfast, lunch i hv 2 find smth or hv nth..n dinner i hv nth cause m working..really mt timing is all messed up...k anywayz im lucky 2 hv mili n anu workin wif mi!2 days ago on our way home, mili started tellin anu n mi abt her "dream car" n boy did i hv such a great laugh!!i neva laughed so hard 4 quite awhile!!cause she was like"shiny pink surface.." n dunnoe wat all also!i started laughing cause i was thinkin, dream so big but wheres e money dude!?is e money dropping from e sky?haha n den i rmb mili's salary last mth came up 2 12 bucks!!which made mi laugh even more!so i was like,wat an expensive car but dai u earning 12 bucks only!!!lol hell i laughed alot but mili i noe u can get tt car!u r a hardworkin little gurl!but make sure u drive mi in tt car 1 day!haha goodness...so since she told abt her dream car, heres mine!i want a silky red jaguar wif black graphics on it!i juz love red man..hmm ok tts all 4 now

happy valentines day

2007-02-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

so im back from work...e only thing tt kept mi goin 2day was e thought of "mon cheri"chocos at home..i asked mummy 2 buy 4 mi!but sadly i came home 2 find ritter sport rum choco...well ok at least theres some sort of alcohol!2day wasnt as crowded..guess everybody is prepared 4 cny...there was dis indian couple(married wif 2 kids) who came 2 e counter behind mi 2day n another lady juz over took dem!n e guy was like wah so fast come ah..n they were tokin..at e end e lady said she noes tt e guy was a gd person so she wasnt afraid 2 overtake!n e guy was like.."o really!thanks!!can u tell my boss tt?"haha i started 2 laugh already!!yes ok i was listening 2 their convo but hey, they were tokin so damn loud!haiz anywayz i was e last person 2 close counter..at 11.15 pm!e uncle closing up e place said he wldnt mind closing mi in as well..!haha no way do i want 2 stay at tt place man...e supervisor vijey was kind enough 2 drop of anu n myself...so now m here wif my choco doin dis entry..tml,or maybe 2day since its 12 plus already, is valentines day...im still single which is gd in a way..hehe will be goin on a date wif my mon cheri anu..hehe its been our tradition since sec 1!but hv work also....well ok doesnt matter i love myself e most so happy valentines day rachel!i love u sweetheart u rock my world!hahaha ok i was actually tokin 2 myself which means im tired...but who says valentines day is 4 lovers eh?it can be 4 friends!so 2 all those ppl i love dearly..I LOVE U!!haha ok ill stop here...
be my valentine and ill get u drunk on cheap red wine!
baby ur honey, baby ur fox, i treasure u more den my xbox!

physically drained

2007-02-12T15:47:00.000+08:00

"y dont they understand, tt we r all e same, n we all feel lost at times"...i was literally singing dis line wen i woke up 2day..i dunnoe y really..i like e song though.stick n stones by aly n aj..nice tune..anywayz i spent many days thinkin through my courses n i think i hv got dem all right..i juz hope n pray 2 get psychology...i dun wanna end up in e wrong course n suffer 3 years..hmm right now m juz so tired..dis whole week hv 2 work till 12 midnight!cause of cny...goodness was so tired yest..my neck was so pain...n e customers were boring!i mean unlike e other weird 1s i meet..so i was dead bored...anywayz my bill came out n umm...im payin la..hehe..its alot...so um yea tts abt it im juz chillin n listening 2 songs..i feel as though i hv a split personality?!lol ok i dunnoe where tt came from.....hv u ever had dreams in which u meet ppl u hv neva met before?i hv been seeing ppl in my dreams pass few days..i dunnoe if i will actually meet dem in real life but if i do, man tt wld be so cool!!kz anywayz, RIC out
mama, juz killed a man...put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger now hes dead

hell YEAAAAAAA!!

2007-02-10T19:44:00.000+08:00

alright FINALLY got e damn results!n m quite proud of myself..wat i got was much betta den my prediction!so yea..m of course headin 4 poly n now hoping 2 get my psycology course!so prayers r being said 4 tt..hehe e hall was so tensed man..u cld feel it..n some more dis mili was sitting behind mi n kept holding onto mi!!haha tts wen i started 2 panic as well!anywayz wen they announced tt everybody passed AMATH, e 2 of us started 2 scream!haha in ur face dgoh!no la, she really did help us alot so hats off 2 her...anywayz wen it was my turn 2 get e results, i didnt move!miss lee called mi 2 come but i was 2 nervous tt i didnt move at all..!n ms lee started 2 laugh!!haha so anywayz i was a nervous wreck n cldnt even sign properly!n den i started 2 do calculation n realised i did betta den expected!it took mi awhile 2 sink tt in..!i started hugging ms tan n even mis goh!hehe..i cant believe i actually passed amath n tts a B3 mind u!!so once out e hall, i started callin up every1!i told pravin my results 1st cause i dedicated dis whole exam 2 him...u c, i hv dis thing where i dedicate every exam 2 each person i love, or who is dear 2 mi...so i dedicated 2 my family members n all i noe...in other words, i study 4 a person each time i take an exam..its sort of like my motivation..cause wen i study, i start 2 think y im studyin, wat reason im doin all dis hard work..y m i livin in dis world(yes its got tt far)..so i found a solution whereby i study 4 a person n e results will somehow show my love 4 dem..!hehe im juz mad at times..i think 2 much!anywayz so yea o levels was dedicated 2 dear pravin n so i told my results n he was happy 2 hear tt i guess...n den called mum n 4 some reason i started 2 cry!tears of joy!cause i heard her voice n she was..shocked/amazed?!?haha so tt somehow made mi cry..n den told dad n bro n all my other teachers!tanny was waiting 4 my call..cause i called her, she was like..HOWWW!!??hahaha not even a hello...anywayz ya la was happy..thank god tt has passed..juz must find a course tt i can get into...o mili is here!hehe she juz came cause wanna c e courses n apply...hmm ok la i also shall look through my courses later on..now m dead tired from work..can u believe i worked from morn till evening!!?!?!on a weekend!its like i hv no life!hehe ok la tts all 4 now..c yall in another entry..
a new chapter in my life...

its tml!!

2007-02-08T14:08:00.000+08:00

ahhhh its comin!!yes im tokin abt O LEVEL RESULTS!!its tml..i cant believe it..4 years passed by so quickly..n tml i start a new chapter of my life...i juz hope 2 get into a poly n take psycology course...gosh new skool, new frends..i cldnt sleep at all last night..12 to 5 i was tossing n turning n thinkin 2 much..5 to 7 i juz laid n stared at e wall n finally 7 to 10 i fell asleep..only 2 be woken up by mili's phone call..e child was scared as well!so juz toked 2 her few min n woke up...i cldnt sleep so i was disturbing pravin at 5 am..hehe poor fella was dreaming so ok i juz left him at tt...i hv work tonight n tml morn..hope i wont be clumsy, thinkin abt results...hv 2 rush tml,from work 2 skool...wonder who will give out results..since both FT n coFT left..haiz..my next entry will be abt e verdict...hope its a gd 1..mum is juz as excited..she wants 2 take half day...well alright i cant stop pacing in my house..hope time flies tonight..i wanna get tt piece of paper n get on wif my life!!
I SAY BRING IT ON!!!!

another song..

2007-02-07T14:13:00.000+08:00

i hv many songs tt somehow speak 2 mi..juz 1 or 2 tt i like so much n cant get enough of...theres another song, disenchanted by MCR which is my fav in e black parade album..will share tt wif yall another time...by e way, love can touch us 1 time, n last 4 a life time...i didnt say it, celine dion said it in her titanic song(my heart will go on)..haha m listening 2 tt song right now n loved tt line..dunnoe y m high wif love..guess its cause feb 14 is comin soon!music is my life, its in my soul..enjoy dis...

This vacation's useless

These white pills aren't kind

I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive

I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9

And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights

I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have

The days have come and gone

Our lives went by so fast

I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor

Where I laid and told you, but you swear you loved me more

Do you care if i don't know what to say

Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me

Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay

That there's someone out there who feels just like me

There is

Those notes you wrote me

I've kept them all

I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall

With every single letter in every single word

There will be a hidden message about a boy that loves a girl

Do you care if i don't know what to say

Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me

Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay

That there's someone out there who feels just like me

There is

There is - Boxcar Racer

results soon 2 come!

2007-02-05T12:25:00.000+08:00

so on sat, my other half woke mi up...meaning anu!e gurl called 2 c if i was comin over later 4 her uncles bday..i seriously had no idea wat she was sayin cause i was half awake...anywayz after i hung up, e idea of stayin at her house came 2 mi..cause i had work e next day so y not go wif her?i tried 2 call back but didnt manage 2 get her..so i decided 2 self invite myself!hehe it happens...i love last min plans, they excite mi 4 some reason...so yea was at her house wif priyaa at night n had beautiful food wif beautiful cake(which anu n i bought at e very last min)...its nice 2 stay at anu's house, wen things dun go right at home..so tt was like a break from reality on sat...sun, went 2 work in e morn..rushed home n went 2 meet e group 4 dhool, dis reality dance programme...my cuz n her fren came over 2 meet mum n they brought e dog..raven...she hates mi..haha yes tt dog kept barking at mi!!i did nth i tell ya!so anywayz i left n met mili 1st..tts wen things sort of went out of hand..cause mili had been having bad luck pass few weeks, so tt bad luck followed us...we went 2 e wrong bus stop..n den wen we went 2 e correct bus stop, we took e wrong bus!anu told us 2 take e bus we took, n wen she realised it was e wrong 1, she didnt call 2 tell us!!y?her phone was out of order!!!only ppl can call her..mili's phone also like tt..at tt pt i really felt like buying both of dem a phone cause i had had enough! ..so anywayz met her at a particular bus stop n took another bus...tt wasnt all...dis prabha, another fren(there were 8 of us meeting up btw), called half way 2 say tt e receptionist lady said there were no tix under my name!cause my aunt managed 2 book n told MI 2 collect dem once i came....but smart ass prabha decided 2 go "help" mi get e tix...so u can imagine e panice attack he gave mili, anu n myself on e bus...we were already in a panic mood due 2 e fact tt we were tokin abt our o level results before e call....n cause of dis panic attack, we missed our stop!!!unbelieveable...we got down n took a cab n wen we reached, i juz ran 2 e reception area thingy n e rest were there waiting..n thank god, e uncle who helped mi reserve e tix was there n he gave them 2 mi!...i was tellin prabha 2 juz sit n wait e next time, no need 2 go n ask cause only i hv e power c..; P...yea yea we laughed like hell n enjoyed e show..damn nice..e groups really did excellent..there was 1 part dis comedian guy kumar came in 2 dance wif a group(spx, it was plained)till now i cant 4get tt dance!haha so funny..i knew tridiac wld make it...they served it up big time..tts wat i call hip hop man...so after e show anu, mili n myself went 2 hv dinner n den returned home...i was sleepin so well wen i got a call..dis time it was hajira waking mi up...askin abt o level result day...haiz, its ok at least ppl wake mi up (especially tt mili gal) but its another wen they ask mi abt smth tt will make mi tensed in e morn!so after tt was msging pravin 4 awhile..tt guy annoys mi 1 day, but e next hes tokin 2 mi like nth happened..somehow i cant stop tokin 2 him 2..hes special...haha anywayz think results r on fri..wateva it is, bring it on baby im ready 4 ya!juz hope i hv enough 2 get into my dream course..psycology at np...anu wants 2 take tt course 2!i was surprised wen she told mi before tt she wanted 2 be a psycologist cause hell tts wat i wanna be 2!hehe we think alike, even our shirt colours match!literally..haha kz im getting distracted...so yea..o level results...come wen u come...alright so tts 1 tension n another is my phone bill...damn hv work 2night..o i got my very 1st pay slip!earned 400+...but gave it all 2 mum cause tt was my mini goal..give my 1st pay slip 2 mum..2nd 2 dad...mum did more 4 mi den dad, so e 1st slip goes 2 her..guess wat, mili got only 12 bucks!lol ridiculous man!but not 2 worry, she will get e rest in her 2nd slip...anu got 500+...cld hv gotten tt if i didnt take mc..but its aight..i earned hundreds 2 begin wif ; P..im not teasing u mili, dun be sad!u will get a thousand next mth!ok tts enough i feel like im tokin 2 myself...peace
wen u go dun return 2 mi, my love

hmmmm

2007-02-01T11:05:00.000+08:00

happy 1st feb 2 yall!theres nth 2 celebrate but hey its e begining of a new mth!anywayz 2day m supposed 2 go n c karnas perform at a temple since 2day is thaipusam...but m still sick!so i decided 2 juz chill at home..hv work tml..haiz.....hehe 2day will be a lonely day since pravy is also helping his frend out wif kavedi..so wont be able 2 speak wif him...hmmm passerby is apparently dis 15 year GUY...he doesnt want 2 be my fan *sobz*...haha hey i hv dis pic tt says "u tok like u hate mi, but give mi attention like a fan"...haha!anywayz its aight ur welcome anytime!my bro n his frends went 2 support spore at e stadium..spore vs thai..spore won of course!my bro came home wif red hair!i want red hair 2!!highlights!haha he said photographers took his pic(cause of e outstanding hair)but other peeps beat him 2 e paper!Heroes(new series on starworld) is quite gd, u guys shld check it out..its on wed..hehe okz i hv 2 go figure out wats 4 breaky...
I tried 2 be perfect, it juz wasnt worth it..i dun believe it makes mi REAL

so sick

2007-01-30T10:09:00.000+08:00

yes i confirm it right now, im sick!i felt it comin last night after work..so i juz came back from e doc n i hv 2 days mc!joy 2 my inner self ;P...no work till fri.thur is my off day c...so anywayz yest work was a great bore..not many peeps came..vijey, e supervisor, was tokin 2 mi n he said bps students r takin over fairprice!haha guess its kinda true judging from e fact tt 7 (or more) of us bpsians r workin there...i managed 2 call pravin yest n had a long chat wif him..kept mi company on my way home..so cute e fella!im waiting 4 e bill once again n i offer 2 pay dis time as well...but its once awhile i get 2 hear his voice so i didnt mind...hmmm so 3 days of total freedom..wat do i do?o i hv a fan in my tag board named passerby..i predict shes a 15 year old chinese gurl from spore?i dunnoe she doesnt want 2 let mi noe who she is..i cant possibly rape u or do anything 2 u!?i juz wanna be ur frend!is tt a crime dude?!haha anywayz hope 1 day i can noe..my other frends r curious as well..hehe hey looky its MCR singing famous last words on mtv!i still love those guys i listen 2 their album everyday!cant get enough of e romance!lol..but linkin park is still my no.1 pick..k anywayz will update later or smth....peace
i wanna love u, u already noe(e song tts playin on mtv now!)

i try 2 much

2007-01-29T12:37:00.000+08:00

i try 2 much....i juz realised tt..i dunnoe y i juz keep trying 2 impress every1 else except 4 mi..i try 2 much at work 2 make every customer happy...even at skool i try 2 much 2 impress my teachers...i cldnt stand A.math but i neva came across e thought 2 drop e subj..y?cause i juz wanna keep tryin...even among my loved 1s i try 2 much 2 impress each n every1 of em..n i end up hurting myself..i get nth in return btw...anywayz i guess tts juz mi...neva giving up on wat i do..i rather c every1 arnd mi happy...o yea i juz got a call from mili n it seems e $100 has been found!happiness 2 e little mikey!apparently e chief cashier didnt give mili e 100 bucks..she brought her mum 2 fairprice n they toked things out wif e big guy..now shes working again..i started praying 4 her wen she told mi she had a shortage...god neva fails 2 ans..yep i hv work at night..hope i dun sleep on e counter(i doubt i wld since i had 11 h of sleep!)

rest day

2007-01-28T21:10:00.000+08:00

i had 2 wake up at 7am 2day 2 go 2 church...i didnt wnat 2 but i did..it was e 1st cc1 lesson n my 1st batch as a facil!was fun..after tt i went over 2 anu darling's house but sadly her mum did not make lunch..no worries we juz had lunch out!n den straight 2 work..2day wasnt so bad not as crowded but i felt my back ache...there was dis 1 young white/chin(or was he chindian?) chef who came 2 mi wif a bag of sugar...n i was lookin down n scanning e item n at e same time i asked if he was a member(dis link card thingy, u get pts 4 items u buy n u can buy other stuff wif tt pts)...n u noe wat his ans was?!?!"yea u n i can be a member together".......wat e hell!!!!!!i looked up n said what??n he was like.."u noe, u n i be a member".....theres a double meaning 2 tt ppl!!if u can c it...haha anywayz i juz started 2 laugh n he laughed as well..n i was like.."so tts a no"...e ppl i meet ah..really interesting sometimes..yest dis african american fella bought dis item tt had a free gift..n he told mi it was free as well..but juz 2 check, i asked e other cashier infront of mi n she said yes,its free...n dis guy was like, so u didnt believe mi eh?!hahaha after scanning his items he was like, "thank u dear"...another customer(white dude) had dis vege which must be weighed, but he didnt..so wen i told him 2 weigh dem 1st, he said nah its ok!haha i started laughing n said sir u hv 2 den only i can scan it 4 u!n he started 2 pretend 2 weigh dem in his hands n said seems 2 be arnd 3g!lol i juz gave him tt pleading look 2 make my job easier n he went 2 weigh dem...haiz, 2day mili lost 100 bucks..no joke man...she really was confused n upset..anu n i counted all her money n 100 wasnt there..e poor child doesnt want 2 work there anymore..she has 2 pay up tt $100...n yest she paid $5...tts y, cashier job aint easy i must say..u lose it, u pay it...anywayz tml is my night shift so till den i get 2 relax..mummy has been vomitting since morn, wonder wats wrong wif her..hope she feels betta soon..hate 2 c her in dis state...anywayz my time 2 chill..cya
As i lay down, soar and sick...do u like tt?

fun day wif cat class peeps!

2007-01-27T23:15:00.000+08:00

hmm i juz got back 4rom orchard..went out wif my church ppl after work..juz a class gathering cause we missed each other : D...anywayz work was a killer..1st time i actually felt aches all over my body...i hope e fatigue isnt setting in juz yet..i worked non stop i tell ya!!it was so crowded e line juz didnt get shorter...i was overjoyed wen anu came n told mi 2 close my counter..poor child 1 of e aunties was impatient wif her..so anu was complaining 2 mi abt her as i was scanning e last few items 4 a customer..n i agree wif her, some of e staff members r racist n rude...but tts life isnt it?u juz hv 2 learn 2 survive..so i tried 2 calm her down abit but honestly speaking, i like her in tt agitated mood!lol i enjoy seeing her angry !!she juz looks soo cute n i cant help but laugh!anywayz afta work i rushed 2 meet crystal n go meet e rest at orchard macs..was funny cause we were like,"y come all e way 2 orchard 2 eat at macs"!so we decided 4 pizza n in e end we landed ourselves at breeks!so cool tt place!u noe y?cause once u enter e waiters will greet all at e same time!!!"welcome 2 breeks!" n wen u leave its like "thanks 4 comin, c u soon!"...i 4 1 was amazed at dis n colin had dis brilliant idea tt we pretend 2 leave n make dem say dis greeting..n den sit back down again!haha man was laughing my head off!wen e food came, nat n i juz 2 a bite from e others plate..we wanted 2 try a diff variety c..hehe n as we really left, e breeks ppl said their gd bye in unity!!i was so...wowed!lol if theres such a word!so e rest of e time was spent taking pics...really ridiculous...we kept losing each other..half went 1 way n e other went who noes where..but was all fun!benedict started singing 2 colin!u shld hv seen tt look colin gave!n he started singing irreplaceble by B n fergalicious by fergie..so cute man..anaywayz was all fun..dis is wat i like..go 2 work in e morn n den go out n party at night...well now m dead tired n juz wanna sleep..hv church meeting in e morn..new cc1 teens r comin in!i cant wait 2 be a facil!haiz hv work after tt so if i dun die along e way, den ill update yall tml..k my bed is callin my name,till den.......
where'd u go, i miss u so

i miss u so

2007-01-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

im obsessed wif e hindi movie, kal ho na ho!!k any how i went 2 work 2day morn n it was such a bore!!!nobody at all!but ok la didnt hv 2 do much also...m dead tired cause yest i had night shift n came home at 11pm..n den 2day was morn shift at 830!iyooo n 2day e customers were rude...hmm anyway e night before i made a fool out of myself infront of e staff..cause leaving time theres dis officer at e door 2 take down ur name n all..so he asked mi 4 my no. n i was like 1....0 umm 5..like tt tellin my no so slowly(i kinda 4got my no.)so dis other supervisor,vijey, started laughing at mi n e rest also!den they were like,"wat, u tellin 4d no ah!" hahaha they made fun of my name..lionel richie..haiz nvm!anywayz i was feelin down juz now after chatting wif some1...but at e time priyaa n zi wei came 2 chat wif mi n both made mi really laugh out loud!zi wei n his ghost stories abt bps..n priyaa wif her guiness(how u spell?)records..sayin ill win e title of weird longest laughter, mili wif e most no.of cheap clothes, anu e non stop dancer n priyaa 4 her jango!lol e things these ppl come up wif ah...but im still proud 2 call em my frends..btw priyaa wants 2 marry my cat...dun ask y cause i still hvnt figured it out either..anywayz hv work tml afternoon..will meet my church makkal in e evening n catch up wif em..hmm now every1s gone 2 sleep...i start 2 wonder abt wat some person said...r u gonna leave mi 4eva?i juz hope u call or msg da..miss u
dis is ur host RIC siging off wif another cheesy line
I M NOT AFRAID 2 WALK DIS WORLD ALONE!!

some things r not 2 be said

2007-01-24T13:37:00.000+08:00

ok i dunnoe y i wrote tt last line..love mi, miss mi..hehe juz came 2 mind so wrote it down!lolanywayz 2day m on leave..but hv 2 go 2 work 2morow night..my 1st time workin at night so hope it goes well..!ok so abt dis over head bridge..hehe..i hv 2 cross it everyday 2 get 2 work la..n i hv dis fear of heights k..so there r some overhead bridges tt "look" safe(wif shelter all) n den there r some tt juz seem as though its gonna drop any moment...which is e type of bridge i hv 2 cross everyday...i thought i had overcome dis fear but apparently not...if my mind is off, as in im distracted or smth, den i can cross wif ease...so usually wen m alone crossing e bridge, i will hold e railing n look straight n run!hahaha..n so little miss sharmili found out dis fear 1 day n laughed at mi!!!i was holding her arm n goin as fast as possible!lol i hv 2 go 2 work wif tt gurl almost everyday n so she noes my fear...n now she wants 2 tell e world..!hmm anywayz u found out 1 of my fears..i hv some others but find out urself!!!muhahahaha!btw like my new background?!still MCR obsession!k signing off..
kal ho na ho(for tml might neva come)

wat a day

2007-01-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

i opened my own counter on monday!finally,id rather work by myself c...so i was pretty gd on my own until i started over charging ppl..!i kept running 2 e chief cashier 4 help!haha but i was lucky 2 correct my mistakes in time before e customers left..i overcharged 1 person 10 bucks!!!thank god she was nice n helped mi out by buying $10 worth of items..anywayz i did well on 1st day being alone(according 2 mi la)..2day was even better!i didnt overcharge anybody n was quite stable..poor mili was in e next counter shivering wif fear n anxiety!it was her 1st day opening e counter on her own..was fun seeing her tremble now n den..hehe!!so cute e gurl..anyway there was dis 1 particular couple who bought $100 + worth of items n wen i gave dem e reciept, e lady gave mi her link card!i cldnt do e card anymore at tt pt so i called another cashier, raji akka(nice lady!) n she was like, call e chief cashier now!so ok chief cashier came n i had 2 rescan everything!i didnt mind much cause its 100 dollars worth of items!!come on u can get so many pts la!!so i was tellin e other customers(a whole line appeared within tt time!)2 go 2 another cashier..2 of dem stayed though...so i was rescanning everything n e lady was sooo thankful n kept praising mi ; )..at e end, she said she wanted 2 write a testimonial comment thingy 4 mi n she was tokin 2 my chief cashier abt it!!i was so happy man!!2nd day on e job n i get a testimonial already!!so coooool!god is watching over mi, sending mi e right customers!lol anywayz she found out my name n took her stuff n left wif her husband n they were like, thanks rachel!so proud of myself!i was happy 4 e rest of e day, singing songs n dancing at my counter!(theres no sign sayin "no dancing/singing" so wat e hell!party!!)n den wen e group of us were in e cashier room counting money, dis other cashier was arguing wif e chief..n den e chief cashier was like,"c Rachel 2nd day on e job n she got a comment already n she got no balance(counting money properly) also" wooooo hoooo!hahaha i was grinning away!but sadly 2day i had 10 cents extra in my balance but its no biggie...anywayz abt dis over head bridge...ill explain in e next entry...!siging off,
Love mi, Miss mi,Kiss mi,Hug mi, DONT get Att 2 mi!
RIC

i need a life

2007-01-20T17:20:00.000+08:00

well m back from work...thank god 2day i was partnered wif another lady..she was nice n polite..she told mi tt she didnt noe much eng n i cld she tt she tried her best 2 try n teach mi some things..so i appreciate tt..i got injured alot of times day la..dunnoe wat was wrong wif mi!i was putting some canned items in a bag n my partner also tried 2 put an item in e same bag so she accidently hit mi n i scrpped my skin part off my nail!damn pain man but after awhile it was alright..anyway i juz had 2 keep working..i kept dropping things also..hehe anyway there was dis white guy n an indonesian maid behind him..all of a sudden she started 2 laugh!i dunnoe y but i hope there was a reason..anyway i started 2 laugh after seeing her laugh!n den e white guy was infront of mi so he seemed puzzled..n he asked mi,wats she laughing abt?haha i told him i had no idea n tt i was laughing at e way SHE was laughing!!in e end he also laughed n said he thought he missed something,some joke..haha tts wat i like abt work..u neva noe wat type of ppl ur gonna meet..i expected 2 c my teacher,mr.tan, 2day but he didnt come..instead i saw BT boy(benjamin toh, my debate makkal!)actually sharmili called mi n wen i looked up i saw him..haha u shld hv seen e look he gave!!he was like,rachel wat e hell r u doin here,i neva expected 2 c u workin here!haha so cute e fella..anyway he overcame his shock n went 2 buy his stuff..n den i met pauline(mums frend)i went 2 collect dis free gift thingy n she tapped my shoulder n said "i told u,u wld c mi here somehow!"haha anywayz i thought she left but she actually bought some stuff n juz HAD 2 come 2 MY counter...n she didnt weigh her vege!so i was like,come n make mi do extra work ahhhh!!haha anyway shes nice so yea..helped her...2day, there werent alot of rude customers..there was 1 who kept sayin "no double bag dis"n tt n bla bla bla..so in my mind i was sayin yea sure no prob miss fussypot!waste plastic bags..ever heard of land pollution dude!!!anywayz afta work i went 2 mr.durais house (my tamil teacher) wif anu cause she had 2 pay tution money..his wife is a tution teacher...so spent an hour there n left 2 hv lunch...m still full cause i had lunch at 4 n its only 5 something now...late,i noe...anywayz m here now not sure wat 2 do..i feel as though i dun hv a life anymore..get up,go work,come back,online,sleep....everyday....it will drive mi nuts if dis procedure carries on!!i agreed 2 e job cause i thought i cld keep myself occupied n not rott at home...i wanted 2 sleep at 3 am den wake up at 12 noon n den go 2 work n den enjoy in e evening(go out n all)...at least tt wld keep mi occupied..but now its like,morn wake at 9..work till 1..den come home n online,sleep at 12...where is my life goin!i need 2 enjoy also!!i feel paranoid...hehe can u tell?!!!

training over!

2007-01-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

finally my training is done!yes im officially known as "e cashier"...i neva expected tt honestly...!but anywayz got e job n m doin it!2day time went by very fast..we did theory n practical..so i totally lost out in e theory..but practical was ok..so e teacher was great, passed us all!now tml i hv 2 go 2 work..dammit...haha im tired la!now e real job begins..bring it on baby!

i will SURVIVE!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-17T13:01:00.000+08:00

ok i said work was fun?its starting 2 show its bad side..well at least 2 mi it is...hmm cause on mon i went 2 work wif anu(mili on leave)n was assigned 2 dis lady..she was very tired lookin...but i really was irritated wif her..cause she made mi do allll e work while she juz stand there n watch mi..come on i hvnt even completed my training!!n she expect mi 2 noe everything..n u noe wat..she kept smacking my butt!wats ur pt dude!!r u addicted 2 my ass or smth??so ok i left at 1 n went over 2 priyaas house 4 foooood!!but den rasi amma(anu mum)called us 2 come over n hv pongal rice n den anu had 2 pray n get blessings or smth like tt..so we ended up at priyaas house at 4..damn late so wasnt surprised 2 c her angry..cause mili n jivi also didnt come last min..hmm so anyway i hate like a pig..ate as though i was starving 4 weeks!preetiqa(her youger sis)was laughing at mi e whole time..but i didnt bother i juz had 2 EAT!!afta tt we anu n i left...we didnt do much at her house..slept by 12 cause had work next day..so on tue i went 2 work wif mili(anu on leave)on tue i was damn pissed off cause i had 2 partner e same irritating lady..she irritated mi more yest cause she tried 2 act as e boss n kept showing off infront of e customers..den there was dis old lady who didnt want mi 2 pack also!wat hell i work here dude!so i was like ok la ur way..n den another old lady was there n she was treating mi like her maid!!my job was 2 pack..she kept tellin mi 2 put her stuff in e trolley..u can do it urself man, my job is packing!i didnt want 2 do it cause e way she asked was so rude n as if she was ordering mi!man e whole day i was juz cursing under my breath..even my partner was taking advantage of mi!making mi do her work..idiots..hmm anyway had mili there 2 cheer mi up..even afta i fin work n i passed her,she wanted mi 2 do more work!n i was like no im fin n den left..2 much la..i hope i dun partner her again..i rather do e work myself..o well juz hv 2 expect these kinda things..juz glad i hv frends arnd working 2..anywayz 2day is my break thank goodness..will complete my training by fri n i will be ready..hope i can adapt well..hmm seems 2 mi tt i hv smth goin on everyday wen m at work!haha an entry everyday bout work..hmmz k m tired..catch yall later

m gddddddd!

2007-01-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

2nd day at work..its really fun actually!went 2 church in e morn 4 jr.cat meeting..den left half way 4 work..brian wasnt 2 happy tt i was leaving n said tt next time it shldnt happen..well i hope it doesnt either...well anywayz rushed over 2 tp n had lunch n went 2 work wif mili..anu took morn shift so as we came,she left..2day was quite fun cause i was given e task of handling e machine!hehe i picked it up easily tt even my partner complimented mi...anywayz wen e line got long, i did e packing..there was dis particular customer i liked best..she was askin mi if i had 2 stand for 5 h straight wif no break n wen i said yes, she juz shook her head n said she will write in 2 e manager..tellin him 2 give us seats at least..so kind of her!n u noe wat?she came back few mins later wif a durian packet(she 4got 2 get it on e 1st round)so i was like ok n juz smiled at her..but tts not e end..mins later she appeared infront of mi!haha dis time she 4got 2 buy some other stuff..so wen i looked up n saw her, i said out loud "wat r u doing back again!"haha which im not really supposed 2 say cause e customer is supposed 2 come BACK!wel u get my pt,juz tt i didnt expect her 2 turn up at my counter 3 times within an hour!!lol so anyway she said tt e supermarket had become her "hang out" place...haha well she was nice 2 mi..wen i 1st scanned her item(which i had trouble doin),she was like o machine spoil..haha cute lady..she knew i was new n was patient wif mi...of course there were e some rude customers but i dun care..in 1 ear n out e other..had my partner 2 laugh wif mi n make mi smile...mili was so cute doin work!haha so kutty carrying all e heavy things!love u gurl!haha kk tml hv work in e morn den will head of 2 pp house(priyaa!) 4 pongal lunch(it betta be gd since ill be damn hungry afta work!)n den will stay over at anu house n ill be back 2 work on tue!haiz..tiring but i love it!at least i dun hv 2 sit here n waste my life...!kz m out....peace

1st day of work

2007-01-13T14:30:00.000+08:00

welllllll finally started my work..m a cashier at fairprice..it sounds lame but wat e hell i get paid!so 2day i was forced 2 wake up at 7 am..went 2 meet mili n den went 2 work..because we didnt complete training, we had 2 do packing...it wasnt so bad i managed 2 do it right wif some minor errors here n there..i was asigned 2 dis gurl who was friendly n nice 2 mi..so anywayz as i was packing e stuff, i juz happened 2 look up n guess who was there infront?my PE teacher mr.tan was there grinning at mi!haha i didnt expect 2 c any1 on my 1st day...n of all e faces i had 2 c his!haha but he was cool..he complimented mi n went over 2 bully mili as well...hehe guess i shld expect some known faces 2 turn up some day..e customers were quite funny n rude as well..there were 2 white ladies n a young gurl, n they had 2 pay 65 cents..so cute e gurl told her mum 2 give a 20 dollar note!haha 4 smth tt costs 65 cents!i started 2 laugh n den e 2 ladies started 2 laugh as well..haha another case was where dis fella wanted certain items 2 be seperated n kept demanding..he was pissed off all e way..but nvm those things happen so i was juz calm..my helper gurl told mi such things will happen n tt i was not 2 argue wif e customer..which will neva happen cause m not tt bold!!anywayz another 4 ppl i noe work there as well..so it aint bad..4 h of work went by quickly..n now m here..tml hv 2 go work again but hv 2 go church in e morn...im expecting fatigue 2 settle right in soon..hehe but 4 now m cool..alrightz tts all 4 now cya!

seducing

2007-01-11T14:14:00.000+08:00

hmmm it was prissy bday on 8 jan so we all went 2 celebrate on tue instead..went 2 e beach n guess wat?we were e only fools there...damn empty..cause all at skool or work..so anywayz we danced n screamed n all tt..though was only 5 of us it was damn fun!haha at 1 pt, they made mi into a guy(cause of my hair)..n den 3 of dem started 2 dance arnd mi!haha like in e pubs!haha i was juz standing there wondering wat 2 do but in e end i also joined in e fun!!!hahaha took a video all...hmm well dis anu n priyaa r stayin over at my place..stayed over from sun..2day they r leavin..was fun hving dem arnd cause my mum didnt call my name at all 2 do work!haha so i was kinda relaxed 4 e week..but hv 2 start work next week..hope it all goes well..but im in no mood 2 work..so sleepy..hehe i slept at 6 am yest..was chatting wif my new fend..nice tokin 2 him..at least he kept mi company!k finally created a blog 4 tt mili gal!n priyaa also...well k m out dude cya

my 1st jobby!!!

2007-01-06T13:19:00.000+08:00

yay i finally got a job!so happy!my very 1st job in dis ugly world!now juz hope i can cope..hmm my 1st job..workin at NTUC supermarket as cashier..not cool i noe but wat e hell!?its all abt e money baby!!lol nah i juz wanna experience working life n juz needed 2 spend my time doin smth..hmm "we tried 2 take it slow but we're still losing control.."haha k m singing!black eyed peas-shut up..well anywayz met mr.boss 2day n we got 2 noe him abit..wld be quite funny watching mili n anu working!haha if they r in e same shift as mi,i juz pray not 2 laugh at dem or i might get fired on e spot..hehe NOT HAPPENING!!hmm mum got bitten by a crab..not kidding..!she was cutting e crab n suddenly it bit her!my god i hv neva heard her scream like tt before also..i was cleaning my room n i heard her n ran 2 her aid immediately..she was strong n didnt cry infront of mi..cause she noes if she cry i will cry 2..yea yea e "love"..haha k la i mean i get irritated wif her n dun like her tokin 2 mi or touching mi..but if she gets hurt ill cry or get angry...hmm it happens yea..mmm "smths getting in e way,smths juz abt 2 break, i will try 2 find my place in e diary of jane.."haha k singing again!breaking benjamin-diary of jane..i like tt verse..e way he says it..anyway i dunnoe who dis "jane" is so 2 hell wif it!..."desperate i will crawl.." hmm kk enough anywayz mums frends comin 2night, bro is not home so now I hv 2 do all e housework...stupid la..nvm..i wanna sleep now cause woke up early 2 meet bossy..

1st day of e year

2007-01-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

so i was at anu's house on new years eve...it was e 1st time i celebrated away from home..but it was nice n fun since rasi amma n uncle were there..slept arnd 230am..n den woke up at 530 suddenly...n den woke at 730 cause of e alarm..had 2 go 4 dance practice at 11..but we didnt wake!n den rasi amma woke us up at 930..but i still didnt wake!hehe n finally last call at 1030 which was anu...so dressed up n went...reached there at 1 n a gurl thought us e moves..but in e end anu n i were not so interested n we left..i had 2 go 2 my aunty's house tt evening..so once i got back,i dressed up n left immediately...alot of people came so was quite fun..my cuz from aust came over wif her mum cause her grandpa passed away...anywayz it was mi,daniel,tanya,nick n andrene(e cousins)who stayed over..tt night daniel gave mi wine in a paper cup..funny thing was tt i didnt noe it was wine!i thought it was some juice n drank it like water..n den i realised..daniel was laughing away at mi..apparently e whole thing was done intentionally..hehe anwayz my bro n dan kept sayin i was drunk..but i was FINE!even my mum said i was drunk n i asked mi 2 walk e line on e carpet..i did walk straight but at e end i juz fell on e sofa..hehe ok so i was a little tipsy but who cares!happy new year!!!lol ok so e 6 of us teens(including gloria who is tanyas frend)slept in e hall...once my aunt put e bed i juz dropped n slept..hehe eventually all of us slept at 2am...following day(which is 2day)we all returned home..i feel kinda weird now cause 2morow skool n work starts 4 every1..except 4 mi!i hv no skool..no work yet..m juz gonna be home..but 2morow hv an interview..so hope at least i get tt la!!i dun wanna stay home n stone!!i need money in my pocket!!haha kk will update..btw,rmb e bet wif my cuz daniel(previous entries)?i lost both bets n so i paid him 4 bucks yest..e humiliation!haha ok he told mi 2 tutor him..maybe tt cld be my side jo..hmmmmmm

happy 2007

2007-01-02T15:47:00.000+08:00

its e 2nd day of e new year...so far all seems great...2006 passed by in a rush...feels like im juz abt 2 enter sec 4...well 2006 was a great year..met new frends n got closer 2 e frends i already had..all e ups n downs i faced..study stress n so on...its e end of sec life 2...i still remember my 1st day of sec 1...4 years gone juz like tt...now hv 2 wait 4 results...though throughout e year i hv been facing probs wif frends, i really miss dem now..cause 2wards e end of year we all got even closer...e fun tt we had...being fools..all great..i hope we all keep in touch( i noe we will)...well anywayz i wld say tt e joke of e year was wen WZ took away priyaas desk n all she did was stand there n give a "wat e hell" look..lol!!!classic!ill neva 4get tt...e best trip of e year was wen my frends n i went 2 perth..amazing place...well these r e few things tt juz come 2 my mind...i must say im glad 2 hv met pravin,ravin n prakash...great people who give mi company...i was hoping 2 get a new friend 4 e new year...n tts wen i met prakash..nice fella hope 2 noe him betta..m glad i got 2 noe logan more dis year cause we both seem 2 hv gone through alot of e same things..hes like e twin i neva had...he was there wen i turned 16 n wen i was alone on xmas night...n ofcourse my darlings anu,mili,priyaa,jivi,haji,pris...i hope our friendships stay alive!k i juz hope 2007 will be an excellent year..new skool n all...hope e results will be very positive...!hehe n i juz hope tt e world will be in 1 piece by e end of 2007!!gd luck 2 every1 n lets juz thank god 4 letting us experience life..happy new year!!

rejection is strong..!

2006-12-31T18:16:00.000+08:00

ok so yest was a "last min" day..mili,anu,priyaa n myself were invited 2 pris house 4 xmas lunch..so i was forced 2 wake up early n meet e people..met up wif 2 of dem 1st cause anu had 2 do smth 1st..we ent 2 pris house n she was like..wat r u guyz doin here!so it seems tt we were invited 4 dinner n not 4 lunch..so being rejected by dear pris,e 3 of us went out 2 hv lunch n told anu 2 meet at amk library n from there we wld go 4 dance practice(sme competition comin up)..u noe,it wld be ok if 1 person didnt noe tt we were invited 4 dinner n not lunch..butt ALL of us didnt noe!!so smth wrong there yea...anywayz we went 2 yishun where anu had her lunch..n at tt moment, e leader of e dance said practice was canceled..!!!wat hell we got rejected again!well anywayz drom there we went back 2 anu house n juz slacked there..n then arnd 6 we juz washed up nwent 2 her house..had dinner n went home by 11...wat a day man..well anywayz was all last min n fun..tts e way i like it!

All i want 4 xmas is u

2006-12-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
I don't want a lot for Christmas there is just one thing I need
And I don't care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking way above the fireplace
Santa Clause won't make me happy with a toy on Christmas day
And I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, you baby
I wont ask for much this Christma
I wont even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe
I wont make a list and send it to the North Pole for St Nick
Wont even stay awake to hear the magic reindeer play
Cause I just want you here tonight, Holdin on to me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, oh baby
Oh our lives are shinin surrounding everywhere
Where the sounds of children's laughter fills the air
And everyone is singin
oh I hear those sleigh bells ringin
Santa wont you bring me the one I really need
Wont you bring back my baby to me
Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm askin for
I just want to see my baby standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you, you, its you, you, oh baby
All I want is you,you, you, you, you, YOU!!

mood out

2006-12-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

its xmas eve n m still in no mood 4 xmas..i dunnoe y..i juz feel so.....alone....i neva really felt dis way on xmas since its my most fav hol of e year...guess its cause i really do feel alone dis year...i mean, my family tradition wasnt really a tradition dis year..last time e 4 of us,mum dad bro n mi, wld hv a fantastic layout of food 4 dinner made by mum,xmas songs wld be playin..n we wld sit at e table n eat as a family..afta tt we wld open up presents n dance n stay up late till 12 n celebrate christs birth...but u noe how it is 2day?there were few dishes on e table..juz bro mum n i sat n ate..afta tt we opened presents..n bro went out wif his friends n mum went 2 sleep..im e only member of e family stayin up till midnight 2 welcome christ...so now u noe e reason y im feelin alone...even though i hv people msging mi n chatting wif mi..its still not e same..o well...dis year is totally diff.........

o sleepy mi

2006-12-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

iyaaa so boring la..i dunnoe wat 2 do..its raining like nobodys business..floods n all...cant go out also..right now only tokin 2 mili...m fed up wif friendster already la..prefer old 1..haiz 2day nth much 2 do..juz stayed home..christmas is comin..but i dun seem 2 be in e mood..dunnoe y..hmm dan says he wanna come..i said he wont come cause his mum wont allow n he wont fin packing(hes goin HK,skool trip)..it came down 2 a bet where i wld give him 2 bucks if he comes my house n he gives mi 2 bucks if he doesnt..i noe ill win cause dan is really slow n lazy wen it comes 2 packing..n i noe his mum wont allow..!haha so lets c..kz anywayz tryin 2 do blog 4 little mili..but dunnoe y its not comin well..must try tml..u must wait mili gurl!

hey ho wad do u noe?

2006-12-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

alrighttttttttt...so here i m..went dhool yest n got back arnd 11 plus..so had a tiring weekend...even worse,i had 2 follow mum 2 mustafa 4 shopping in e morn..so went round e whole place n i really got restless!cause it was boring!!!well anywayz was wif my periyamma n periyappa so we went 4 lunch wif them..n how wonderful it was!!all e curry n mutton..excellent indian food..anywayz got home n juz cleaned up e house..christmas comin u noe..well was tryin 2 do friendster up but i really got confused..must ask logan..o speakin of logan, tt fella called mi 6 am in e morn!i mean usually he miss call la but dis time my phone rang n rang!haha purposely wake mi up..hmm kz tml hv 2 go out shopping again i think..haiz kk peaceout

wow wheeeee!

2006-12-17T10:05:00.000+08:00

gd morning..im so tired right now..went 4 asuraz last night...was abit boring la..1st,we had 2 stand throughout e whole thing!4 hours...but e dancers were great..anu's group was very unique n dey did well..but they didnt get e 1st prize..wonder wat e judges were thinking...well anywayz i got back arnd 1 am..n den i saw my frend online so was tokin till 3am...n now m here..all alone..everybody is out except moi..so party time!haha nahhhhh m juz gonna chill 2day..well anywayz on thur i followed my cousins n my aunts frends arnd spore..they were from usa heading 2 india n they had a 1 day transit in spore..so e family of 5(white people!)n my aunt uncle n 2 cuzzies n myself brought dem arnd spore...e father kept asking mi abt spores history so since i was a brilliant ss/hist student *ahem* i told all tt i knew..it was a fun day..tan & dan n i were tokin 2 tess,tate n trent(who looks like harry potter btw)n they told us abt their skool,environment n all tt stuff...so e whole day we went arnd orchard n city hall..went 2 esplanade,some museum,china town,arnd orcahrd road n brought dem over..so i spent a whole day wif whit people..how cool is tt!!haha ok tanya says i hv an obsession wif white people..but i say its juz tt once in awhile its nice 2 be surrounded by people of diff races..appart from chinese,malays n indians...sweet,i woke up singing mcr songs..im gonna get addicted 2 dem once i get e cd!yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

dan n doggy

2006-12-15T18:55:00.000+08:00

haha hey noe wat?daniel(my cousin) got bitten by a german doggy do!!he was goin 2 e shop or smth n waiting at e lift..den e door opened n i think e dog got scared so it bit him deep..he was shaking like mad wen he got home...well now hes fine..i saw e dog wen i was over at their place..hehe

wat a week

2006-12-10T19:54:00.000+08:00

ooooook so m back from my 3 day camp...was a junior cats camp..basically it was 4 e 20 of us 2 get 2 noe each other well as we wld be working 2gether in e future...well honestly i found e whole thing a bore...i was wishing tt i cld get back quick...but i was glad 2 stay cause loads of stuff happened...1st day was all sorts of games..we had some sort of a debate also..played captains ball n ofcourse i rocked(as always)...hehe k den at night we did dis personal quiz thingy...n we had 2 group up according 2 e results...so among 20, only mi n another person had e same personality!haha which was a performer!haha it meant tt i always love 2 be e "host" n tt im talkative n love 2 entertain peeps...haha it was like so true!well on e next day we had more games n there was dis obstacle course set up...there was 1 part where i had 2 go round a stick 5 times...so afta doin tt i was like sooo dizzy tt i went 2 my left instead of straight, n den i fell down n had 2 crawl 2 e next part!haha brian n paul who were making sure tt i did e obstacle properly started 2 laugh!!haha well i had 2 find a sweet in flour n i was blowing e flour so brian came n push my head into e flour!hahaha iyoooooo was so funny man..well after tt we had a very impt session..it seems tt 4 us 2 hv a strong bond, we each had 2 share wif e group smth personal..smth nobody knew...well 4 mi i was thinkin abt my family but 2 of dem shared abt their family already...so e next thing tt came 2 my mind was smth abt religion...n as i was sharing,i started 2 cry!i dunnoe y but i already started 2 tear wen i heard e others share...i was really touched by 1 story..i cld relate 2 it...well anywayz i felt tt my sharing was nth big n was like e rest..i was wrong,cause afta e whole sharing thing,daniel said tt we cld go n hug people who we really wanted 2 hug..n afta he said tt, joanne immediately came 2 mi n juz hugged mi n started crying!!i was bloody touched man cause 4 e whole day i was thinkin tt she was against mi 4 some reason n i thought she hated mi..well i was soooo wrong!i started 2 cry wen i was hugging her..n den went arnd...gosh i was such a touching night...e next day(2day morn)daniel said we hv 2 write 5 letters 2 5 diff peeps who touched us..so i wrote 2 a few of dem n i was all wondering who wld want 2 write 2 mi n like how many letters i wld get..but my goodness i got a whole lot of letters at e end!i was like totally touched man...so many peeps cld relate 2 mi n i was so happy..well afta tt we attended mass n i was e person 2 read(again)haha last time i did it,it was a disaster!haha but i did gd 2day..we packed up n returned home n now im like dead tired...o yea 1 more thing,2day morn i was hving such a wonderful dream wen all of a sudden raymond tickled my leg n he was like shouting at mi sayin "rachel u hv only 10 more min"!!!haha apparantly i was e last few 2 wake up..funny part was tt wen i woke up n looked arnd mi..cause it was like my bed was in e middle of e hall while e rest kept their beds away!haha i was laughing away man...well okiez dis is e longest entry!haha i shld stop here 4 now!hehe JUNIOR CATS ROCK!!!

hmmz

2006-12-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

2day went 2 play pool wif anu pris n pavan..was nice cause after soooo long i got 2 meet my wifey..hehe yea hmmz dis week nth much juz tt i hv a camp end of e week..fri,sat n sun...its 4 junior cats..in other words,training 2 become a fcilitator or 2 help out in church classes..as in i might be a teacher in church!haha cool...juz pray tt e camp will be fun n tt i cld make new frends...so ill leave on fri n return on sun...my cousins r supposed 2 come dis week but i doubt tt can happen..cause some peeps wanna go etp...n mili wanna go find job..so maybe next week they will come...well ok tts all 4 now..was juz bored so came here...hehe RIC out!

red team cheer

2006-12-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

i was really hooked 2 dis cheer at e red camp so im gonna share it wif yall

Fight like a champion, FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!
Win like a champion, WIN WIN WIN!
Fight like a champion win like a champion
All e rest can go fly kite!
Fly kite,fly kite,all e rest can go fly kite!
Later kenna lightning strike!
GOOOOOOOO RED TEAM!!!

lol i dunnoe y but i was amused wif dis cheer!haha maybe cause of e rhythm...or maybe e part abt flying kites..haha peaceout

ooooooo man

2006-12-02T20:43:00.000+08:00

vanakam..hello..haha ok yea well m dead tired right now actually..well 1st, m finally tokin 2 logan!really missed him..but thing is we r not speakin as before...still feel some gap..o well only time can tell...anywayz im tired now cause o e 3 day red camp at NP poly!!man it rocked!seriously..1st day we got 2 noe abt some courses n experienced e various ccas there..i tried takewando(how u spell tt?!?)netball n archery!e peeps there challenged us 2 break a plank..u noe those karate moves la..so i managed 2 break tt plank thingy on e 4th kick..;P...archery was e most enjoyable i think..e gurl there said i was gd!maybe i hv a knack 4 dis sport..hehe...2nd day was e best!we went 2 check out e science courses n mass com(both of which i intend 2 take)n at night there was a dnce floor!!!dude we rocked e house down!i was surprised 2 c priyaa dance!she can move it baby!haha anu n i ofcourse danced till we dropped!not literally,juz e expression..hmmz dis mili n priyaa ah,expect e unexpected 4rom dem!anywayz got back only at 11 pm n dropped on my bed...2day was e last day..we went 2 check out e engineering courses which were pretty cool...aerospace wa fun!i drove a virtual plane n crashed!hahaha but i got e hang of it in e end..den 4 e last time,all teams gathereed n did our cheers,screamed clap n all tt stuff..den we left...tt was e end of it...came home in e evening n tts wen my cousin from america came over 2 my place wif her frends..had dinner n toked awhile...they juz left so now m here...main reason why m blogging now actually is cause of mili..she wasnt able 2 make it 4 e camp cause she is at malaysia...well gurl i noe dis entry isnt in detail so i will ans ur qus..tt is if u hv any...

sadness

2006-11-28T12:17:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe wat la...m still upset wif 1 of my anne...hes really close 2 mi but now afta all dis profile thing..dunnoe la wat 2 do..he doesnt want 2 give mi a chance also...i doubt if he even wants 2 tok 2 mi again.i dun wish 2 loose him either...hes like my twin...m juz at a lost now la...i tried tokin 2 him but he wldnt listen so wat else can i do?haiz...c wat happens

argh!!

2006-11-27T12:21:00.000+08:00

sheesh..been in a pissed off mood 4 2 days!!y u may ask?its juz e things tt people do!really stupid things...so 1st was logan...he got upset wif mi cause i changed my friendster profile...i mean he did my previous layout...so i already had in mind 2 change at e end of e year...n wen i did, he got upset cause according 2 him, i dont appreciate his work n i dont care abt his efforts..like HELLOOOOOO!!!???wats ur prob if i changed,its MY profile?!?since wen can 1 overule my profile??!n u noe wat pissed mi off big time?he didnt even let mi explain anything!juz cut mi off!its like i got slapped in e face...n he says wateva i say r excuses...FINE!if he wants 2 jump 2 conclusions abt mi FINE!but juz 2 set e record straight...he did ae profile 4 mi,yes..i used it cause i didnt want his hardwork 2 go 2 waste...n even though i changed my profile now...i m still keeping his codes...y?cause i APPRECIATE e things people do 4 mi...so there u go...anywayz e next day dis jenny gal give mi headache!haha i was rushing 2 go meet anu 4 dhool 2 pass camera cause i may not be able 2 c her later on..den dis jenny taking time..say wanna go chua cho kang..dunnoe la but time will be lost!so i immediatly called her n set it straight tt she was 2 meet us straight,not go anywhere else..so tt was gd in e end..BUT it didnt end there..anu called mi suddenly tellin mi 2 rush 2 her house n get her lens cause hers dropped n she cldnt find it!iyoooo mili jenny n myself rush 2 mediacorp n got anu house key,rush back got her stuff n went back..i was getting tensed cause e taxi money was goin up...n i didnt hv much,neither did jen or mili..well anywayz anu helped 2 pay also n we managed 2 get everything done..dhool was nice, anu all did well but sadly cldnt make it 2 e next round..haiz got back at 12 midnight..mi still sleepy..hope i dun get pissed off anymore..cya

FINALLY!

2006-11-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!!!!n i really mean it..afta so long n so much of hardship n pain.........e comp is finally fixed!yes it is!!!now i wont die of boredom!n now tt exams r over..freeeeeeeeedom!yea baby party at my house!haha so now tt my comp is ok(i hope) im here blogging...mili seems awfully bored eh...hehe alright i shall carry on tml!nth is comin 2 mind at dis pt of time so i shall stop.

yawn

2006-11-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

im sleepy.......really i m...dunnoe wat im typing but hey,its all cool!hmm m chatting wif logy boy now...juz got introduced 2 arul mani, 1 of my fav "djz"..lol really funny e things those people do..well anywayz had fun at tanny's house..man she scored full A's 4 her O's!!tts...impossible!!!inhuman!!!but she proved otherwise..gosh i can neva reach tt high...but wld it hurt 2 try?hmmmz my 1st exams r on mon..i really hope God will show some light...n i hope ill be ready by den..its time 2 fight back

victorious!

2006-10-31T17:54:00.000+08:00

dudeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!chem pract was like a gift from God!!well at least i hope i get a reasonable mark...unlike bio which i noe i totaly flunked!well juz hope tt goes well yea..hmm m so sick of ss..i keep lookin at it n its startin 2 bore mi..cant wait till mon...wont hv 2 c ss again!or at least till i go JC or poly...arghhhhhhhhh its comin so fast!n it will all end within 2 weeks...e exam i was waiting 2 take fo 4 years...all over real soon..kinda makes mi wonder wat ill be doin afta O's...its like u study 4 soooo long..n suddenly, u dun hv a book in ur hands...weird but true..alright ill hv time 2 think abt tt afta e exams..till den, peaceout!

1 down...6 more 2 go

2006-10-30T19:53:00.000+08:00

yes!tamil is finally out!now hv 6 more subs 2 tackle...geez...chem pract is tml..hope it wont be as disastrous as my bio pract...hehe...hmm wonder wat ill be doin afta O's...roam arnd spore or smth...k ill end here

so sick

2006-10-26T12:56:00.000+08:00

e verdict is out..im sick!of all e times,i had 2 get sick now!started wif nick who got it from his frend...i noe myself,my body is weak..so ill get sick very easily...well e bright side 2 dis is tt at least now m sick n wont get sick during my O's...i hope...but now i feel so guilty tt im not studying..i try 2, but im juz 2 weak..on top of tt, tamil O's r on mon!!followed by chem pract...i juz hope ill be able 2 complete my studies soon...only hv God by my side now

Hurt

2006-10-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face

You told me how proud you were but I walked away

If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss

You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that

I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

dedicated 2 some1...sorry

happy deepavali one n all!

2006-10-21T21:46:00.000+08:00

so yea..2day is deepavali..sadly im not doin my yearly tradition wif anu due 2 stupid o's...well at least was able 2 go 2 prems house 4 lunch wif her...cldnt make it 2 patty ma's house though..sorry!yea well dis year was online wif logan n anu 4rom arnd 9pm till 2am...at least they kept mi company...hmm hari raya is comin next..so its off 2 hajira's house on tue...well now m exhausted..but hv 2 study..persevere!hmm abit mood out now.......

sleepy

2006-10-19T18:02:00.000+08:00

well..yest i felt sooooo damn guilty..i 4got tt it was Brindha's bday!!i mean..i thought it was on e 19..but apparantly it was on e 17!!she was turning 19 on e 17 of oct..gosh i felt like e bad guy...but thankfully she forgave mi n my punishment was 2 write her a testi..hehe so sweet of her..love her lots..n den 2day was Ravin's bday...i remembered..but i still 4got 2 wish..so during my ss lesson was wen it struck mi..n ofcourse i immediately msged him..hmm seem 2 be really forgetting things..hope i dont do tt 4 e o's...hehe..had alot of fun bullying ms tan 2day!she was so cute man...her reactions..hmm m very sleepy...training myself 2 sleep at 12 am n wake up at 8am..hv 2 focuss on my studies...o yea..as i was typing dis,i was tokin 2 my bro..n den i juz happened 2 turn n look at him...he had a hair cut!!n it looked so wierd!!haha man i started laughing!!!!!i think he wanted a "rock n roll" haircut..but he looks RIDICULOUS!!!!!!!!hahaha well ok sharmili asked mi 2 write an entry 2day though i had no intention 2...i hv a fan!lol ok so mili gal, dis entry is dedicated 2 u!peaceout yall

PANIC!!!

2006-10-17T17:40:00.000+08:00

o my GOSHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!i m so terrible at remebering stuff!!!2day was my O level bio pract exam...i woke up early 2 go 4 a ss workshop thingy n den went 2 e waiting room at 11...i was going through my stuff n getting ready 4 e pract wen it hit mi hard on e head..I FORGOT E DAMN ENTRY PROOF!!!!!!!!!!!!!i almost broke down!!lucky nadia n estee were wif mi n they did e thinking 4 mi..u c i get a brain blockage wen i panic..hehe..anywayz we ran 2 e general office 2 get an extra copy n juz my luck, e principle wasnt there 2 sign e paper!!!thank God mr.loh signed it 4 mi n e 3 of us made it back in time...we were supposed 2 report by 11.15 so juz nice...miss.lim was there n i told her tt i only had e paper which e general office gave mi n she started calling whoever while i was on my chair bitting my fingers off!!!n den she came 2 mi n said ok im still allowed 2 take e exam!but wen we started doing e exam, dis other teacher from another skool was goin arnd checking our entry proof!!!i was like o God help miiiiiiii!!she came 2 mi n i told her e truth...n she told mi 2 carry on wat i was doin while she checked my possesions...i cldnt think right at all!!!but she kept quiet n walked away n tts wen i was at peace..well not really!but i did my pract n was drained by e end...mr.peterson was there at e end of e pract n he kept asking mi how e pract was, maybe cause i was escaping tt qus!anywayz was wif mr.peterson n mrs.loh discussing e qus...n i sank lower n lower...den i was on e way home wif nadia discussing e ans...tts wen i realised i did my calculation wrongly!arghhhhhhh 6 marks gone down e drain!!i confirm it now,no way m i getting tt distinction...guess now its all up 2 e other papers 2 pull mi up...u c, bio is e only sub im confident in getting A1...now,im sitting here feeling sorry 4 myself!!o wellz, really hv 2 go all e way...dis is between mi n u, my darling O levels

e race soon begins

2006-10-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

woke up late 2day n had 2 start cleaning e house cause people were coming..yep my bros bday/confirmation celebration...tanya n i went 2 buy nick's cake(i noe, very last min!)n had lunch back home..really delicious food..its been awhile since i had my mums food...anywayz we juz toked n watched tv...tanya n daniel stayed on while everybody left... both left at night..till den we were juz chillin out...anywayz m dead tired now n hv 2 go 2 skool 4 clinic sessions..how i envy marleen!she can simply cross e road n reach skool while i hv 2 take e damn bus..o well, tml is wen i really go full swing...really wanted 2 tok 2 some1 2day but apparantly tt person didnt show up...dont think i will hv e chance 2 speak 2 him till my O's r completed..but tts ok as long as i get 2 c him after e exams..alright, may God be wif mi as i start my race

Nick's confirmation

2006-10-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

started my day early wif anu at j8..bought some stuff n juz chilled at a cafe...den had 2 go back n go 2 church wif mum cause nick was finally getting confirmed..i was confirmed in july so 2day was his turn...confirmation is basically being confirmed a catholic...anywayz i was taking pics like crazy!archbishop was there so was kinda cool...afta e ceramony, nick went off wif his frends 2 celebrate while mum n i went 2 swensense...an indian guy served us n it was so funny!cause everytime he came 2 serve us, i got a shock!he kept appearing suddenly n at such a speed!k den came back n now m here..watching patiyal..hmmm main thing 2day was my bros confirmation cause my mum really wanted him confirmed..as e youngest sibling(being mi) getting confirmed 1st, brought some kind of a bad name 4 my mum as my relatives were sayin tt my mum isnt bringing up my bro well...so now tt dis whole thing is over, guess shes at peace now...tml is priyaas bday...16 also...welcome 2 e aunty club!k tts abt it..tml got a bday/confirmation party 4 nick...nightz

graduation day

2006-10-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

woooooow wheeee!!2day was 1 of those craziest excellent days!well 2day was graduation day..so sad must leave e damn skool...hehe k well we took lots of pics wif frends n teachers...mrs loh was teaching bio...but i told her its useless cause we were all in e mood 4 photo taking!so she was kind n understanding n let us take pics n enjoy..den we went 2 e hall n tts where we had e celebration..su qi n i went up on stage 2 say our thanks 2 e teachers...den e teachers actually sang us songs!so cute man..it was shocking 2 c ms lee play e guitar!hmm den recieved merci chocs n a rose 4rom su qi!!so sweet of her...afta tt, marleen,sharmili,suqi n i headed 2 pizza hut n had a meal 2gether...was sooo much fun there!we were e only students there so we were laughing n chatting away...den i rushed back home, took a shower, n rushed back 2 e same place 2 meet my church frends..was hving a bday bbq 4 benedict...was damn fun!had satay n those other bbq stuff...there was vodka too!so we all had a bit n tts wen things started 2 become really crazy!i saw 1 of my buddies colin, roasting a marshmellow...wif e help of a candle!!so pathetic!but anywayz i joined him n we started giggling away..den he had e bright idea of puting some charcoal in a foil pot..so it was colin,ben n myself on e floor roasting marshmellows(dis time e fire was much bigger)n den colin dropped his tissue n ben was like, hey u dropped ur marshmellow!!i was laughing away!!tts not all!nat came..colin was heating a charcoal..n nat was like "hey ur marshmellow is burnt.i looked at colin, he looked at mi..n we both laughed so loudly!!last but not least,e maid brought out sparkles..n benedict's younger bro had alot of dem...nat wanted dem so bad she was saying "i want also"..colin n i looked at each other cause we both heard it as "i want ASSHOLE"!!!!!!k so all of dem said colin n i were drunk cause of e vodka..hehe maybe!HILARIOUS i tell ya!but i thought i was laughing cause of e stupidity, not cause i was drunk!!k anywayz i got back n told my mum n she was like, yea ur drunk!so now im sitting here wif a cup of tea doin dis blog...hv 2 meet anu tml n go shopping..so its off 2 bed...awesome day..nighty night

1 day before graduation...

2006-10-12T16:49:00.000+08:00

hmmm k back 4rom skool...sleepy..hehe..k was glad 2 finally hv a chat wif a friend of mine yest afta soooooo long...he broke his arm or smth like tt cause of a motorbike accident..life really is fragile so i hope he does take care..scary man...well anywayz 2day was quite a sad day..2nd last day of being in skool as a whole class!den ill be out of tt skool 4 gd...time really does fly..tml is graduation...dunnoe wats gonna happen.. i really wanted 2 get out of dis skool of mine from day 1..now, things hv changed...i rather stay in tt skool!haha i dun wanna noe wat lies ahead!!but i dont hv a choice now do i?well anywayz, mdm.k was so sweet!gave us loads of stuff...gonna miss her...o yea..2day is sharmili's n nicholas' bday!16 n 18...all old aunty n uncle already la..hehe...funny thing is wen i got back,i didnt wish nick!i really 4got!den my mum called after like,an hour, n asked if i wished him...n i was like..O M G!!!!!my own bro!!so i wished him n he said "too late" in his usual sarcastic tone..hehe i can get very forgetful c...VERY....o yaaaa!!sharmili n priyaa hv been telling mi 2 watch dis video on you tube abt np makkals..sooooo damn funny man!!!haha i actually laughed out loud!!so cute they sing song n dance!haha goodness, dis is wat people do wen they r bloody bored!haha kk ill stop here 4 now....; )

alllllllll e way!

2006-10-10T18:08:00.000+08:00

am back!well tanya was supposed 2 help mi out wif dis blog..apparantly shes missing in action..but tts ok guess i hv 2 juz blog n deco afta O's...hmm k..so skool was amazingly fun...2day had e eng thing wif mdm.k...was actually feeling down pass few days..didnt want 2 study or tok 2 any1..but afta toking 2 mdm.k, gosh i feel much betta..more determined den ever!so now juz taking a break..n its of 2 book land wheeeeeeeee!4 some reason..m thinkin of Anu's chocolates..hehe love em...ok tts all 4 now...

still upgrading

2006-10-09T15:05:00.000+08:00

ummmmmm...ok i think ill be sticking 2 dis skin 4 awhile..still really hvnt mastered blogging...hehe but m on e way!ok so i noe i hv 2 fill in e rest of dis blog..so now it may seem a little weird,but ill change it..someday..:P ok m out 4 now

check it out

2006-10-09T12:43:00.000+08:00

ok so im testing dis blog thingy out...its not quite done as u can c...it takes time yea...ok so next entry will come soon..hehe

somewhere i belong

AUSSY AUSSY AUSSY!!!

sooooo tired

B.O.R.I.N.G

cause u had a bad day..

Hangover..NOT!

im back..or maybe tts wat i think?

end of term 2..SOON!

Darling W15H

happy bday 2 mi!!

lonely no more

25/6/2007

well well well looky wat we hv here..

e feeling of being...LOST

im back!

its been awhile

*GASP!*

TGIF!

satisfaction ; p

meetings

happy easter peeps!

good friday

thailand trip

thailand, here comes mi!

success!

y men r betta cooks?

come 1 come all!

cant get u out of my head

take mi by e hand take mi somewhere new

turn mi on baby ; P

u dunnoe wat im feelin

crisis!

my day with noel nathan

jennys bday

happy bday daddy!

im back!

F.R.E.E.D.O.M

last day!

can u take it all away?

feelin unmeish

break

hv u ever really loved a woman?

CNY day

happy cny!!

plea 4 peace

happy valentines day

physically drained

hell YEAAAAAAA!!

its tml!!

another song..

results soon 2 come!

hmmmm

so sick

i try 2 much

rest day

fun day wif cat class peeps!

i miss u so

some things r not 2 be said

wat a day

i need a life

training over!

i will SURVIVE!!!!!!!!!!

m gddddddd!

1st day of work

seducing

my 1st jobby!!!

1st day of e year

happy 2007

rejection is strong..!

All i want 4 xmas is u

mood out

o sleepy mi

hey ho wad do u noe?

wow wheeeee!

dan n doggy

wat a week

hmmz

red team cheer

ooooooo man

sadness

GASP!

yawn