lonely no more

lonely no more...ur face occupies my thoughts, our memories keeping mi company. I dunnoe if u guys noticed but i definately c a change in myself...after getting wat i wanted 4 e past 3mths, i feel that i have become arrogant, more rude, angry, over protective, sensitive...i dunno but juz all e bad side of mi seems 2 be showin more e past mth..dis aint mi really, i noe myself..thank God i noticed so it really is up 2 mi 2 find myself again...

apart from that, LIFE IS GREAT BABY!!!feel a whole new level put up 4 mi!despite everything that happens throughot e day, i find myself smiling and laughing by the end of e day...n its all because of u :p

went out wif ms.mili n ms.su qi n her sis 2 watch harry potter(again)..i must say it aint tt bad u noe...though e movie was a rush meaning they skipped a lot of e good parts..but it was all good since draco n e weasly twins were there..hehe..but it was e ppl i spent time wif tt mattered..missed tt susu girl la! missed bullying her!tt girl is still e same!same style most importantly same laughter!haha damn had fun wif those guys yest...was supposed 2 meet anu actually but cocked up due 2 a particular person sending mi e wrong msg..but doesnt matter anyway

skool has been great as usual..grades gd n so on..as u can c, few hv discovered my blog n claim tt i didnt mentioned anything bout it...i did mention it dammit!!haha well at least now u guys noe so wat u waiting 4, link mi up!there was a ridiculous incident tt happened e other day during VB lesson(which no doubt, il stress upon)..so wat happened wa stt mr.saravanan n i went 4 lunch n were requested to buy waffles 4 e class. wen we came back, sara was trying to give out e exact change to those who paid..he didnt succeed n needed my help den..hard 2 convince him la!i gave e money back exactly n there was left 1 but we were short in 10 cents..4 tt dis sara sir made a big fuss!omg i juz took my 10 cents n offered 2 pay but nooooo he still insisted tt we gave out e wrong change!jerry got in n was like "10 cents only y so much fuss"...of course sara still insisted n tts wen i lost it n shouted at him 2 juz leave it its only 10 bloody cents!!which I paid!!haha got e class laughin n finally got rid of tt..but still sara seemed 2 be in deep thought wif tt.hehe poor fella,but he has his morals though

o n btw its saravanans bday today so HAPPY BDAY DUDE!!despite e fact tt u TRY 2 make my life miserable in class, i wish u all e best in wateva u do!

hmm my bday is comin..shall be hving few days 2 celebrate i guess..sun out wif mum,mon out wif dad den tue or wed out wif my darlings..i promised 2 bring dem 2 swensence so maybe tt is on sat...mili wont let mi go until i treat, anu...no need 2 say, she will threaten!hehe..well c how tt goes..cant believe m turning 17..time flies n cant wait 2 go through more things in e future!

2day wif jc peeps were great...we had 2 be put in e hot seat n e rest will tell things abt u..so wen i wnet up, dan asked, who is rachel..n gosh all e unexpected ans came n i was shocked in a way tt these guys noticed such things abt mi..1 was tt i always hv a smile on my face, hv a so called secret sense of humour tt some noticed, doing my best, being a gd frend n tt i bring out e best in others...gosh it went on n on like tt..love those guys m glad i stayed in tt group..really feel e bond after e camps!

well...been hving late nights 4 e past 1 mth.n wen i mean late nights, i really mean it..it can go till 4 am in e morn n standard i hv 2 wake up at 7 everyday..usually i wld break down after 1 week,but dis is a diff situation n its 4 a purpose tts y m still standing tall! some asked mi how e hell im still stable n if i drink red bull always..honestly i dun need tt shit, juz a particular smth which can last mi a life time..hehe no wat i mean?

kk enough of tt..my bday is nearing n there is smth i hv 2 reveal 2 my family soon..i hv 1 more week n all i ask is 4 u Lord 2 stand by mi n give mi courage to do wat i hv 2 do.i juz hv 2 hope n pray 4 e best n most importantly, acceptance.

"Nothing you confess will make me love you less"