mood out

its xmas eve n m still in no mood 4 xmas..i dunnoe y..i juz feel so.....alone....i neva really felt dis way on xmas since its my most fav hol of e year...guess its cause i really do feel alone dis year...i mean, my family tradition wasnt really a tradition dis year..last time e 4 of us,mum dad bro n mi, wld hv a fantastic layout of food 4 dinner made by mum,xmas songs wld be playin..n we wld sit at e table n eat as a family..afta tt we wld open up presents n dance n stay up late till 12 n celebrate christs birth...but u noe how it is 2day?there were few dishes on e table..juz bro mum n i sat n ate..afta tt we opened presents..n bro went out wif his friends n mum went 2 sleep..im e only member of e family stayin up till midnight 2 welcome christ...so now u noe e reason y im feelin alone...even though i hv people msging mi n chatting wif mi..its still not e same..o well...dis year is totally diff.........